Thank you all of your continuing support, it is much needed and may not be helping right now but it will sink in. I am going to be away from my computer over the weekend, I am going to stay with my inlaws, dad said we can cry together wow that is going to be weird I wonder if I should still call them mom and dad. He is a very spiritual man and is divested and disappointed in his son, he has prayed every night with me that we would get through this, and he honestly believed we would. I just don't see how they can forgive me for what I did and their son cant and he is the one who told me every day he loved me before July.<BR>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

Lesa,<P>I am glad you are getting away for the weekend. Maybe your in-laws can give you the support you need.<P>Remember I am always here for you. You have my addresses, use them.<P>I understand how your H is not your H. That is exactly how my last conatcs with my ex were. It is really starnge, because they act, talk, and behave like completely different people. <P>I think that only goes to show, he is not thinking clearly.<P>Please give me a shout. We all care about you here.

I just wanted to check in one last time before I left, I still dont know what I am going to do or how to do it,but I am trying to get my brain to think not having much luck, Iit just so hard to see my life wothout the man I love as a husband, he wants to be friends but how do you be friends with someone you love so much. I'll be back sunday afternoon.<BR>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

Lesa,<BR>I know how you feel. My W wants to be just friends while she is still married to me. I don't know how to exclude the husband part. I guess it will eventually lead to her making love to me again rather than just sleeping with me as it was with the other men.<P>Have fun over the weekend.<P>------------------<BR><B><I>God Bless,<BR>Rob</I></B><BR> regilmor@swbell.net

Well I am back, don't feel a lot better FIL and I had a long talk (I think it included every fight H and I have ever had) H called after church, talked to the kids and then to me neither he or I said a word about what has been happening this past week, just talked about the snow up there and how Raymond likes his new school, I still don't know what I am going to do over it all, I do know however I need to get out of here and get my own place, I love my folks a lot but they are driving me nuts. They are very angry with Earl, I think like this... if his folks can support me in this knowing what I have done in the past then mine should be able to do the same. But then again my entire family is very petty and fights for the reason to just fight. Someone is always mad at someone else. FIL is going to help me get a car so I can get a job and my own place in town, H told FIL that if I wanted to the kids and I could stay out there<BR>When he comes in but he wont stay here, and I know it is my parents making him feel uncomfortable. <BR>If I can get my place by then maybe in march H will stay there, if I can only get him to put the whole filing thing off I think we would be ok if he could stay with us when he comes in.<BR> I just thought you might want to know how my weekend went.<BR>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and<BR> lean not unto thine own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P> lms20ish@jobe.net

Lesa,<BR>Glad you're back! I've been so bored!! I'm glad your FIL was supportive of you. Sometimes if they can't do anything else at least they can love us, right? <P>Maybe in March things won't go as bad as what you think. At least he offered to have you stay at his parents house then. That's a small sign. <P>Get a hold of me later. I'm always around.