Judy<BR>BLESS YOU!!!! I've been checking all day to <BR>see what you decided....knew you wouldn't go! Will keep you in our prayers!! <P>CJ <P>------------------<BR>Psalm 42

CJ ~ I'm glad ONE of us knew I wasn't going to go. I am still questioning my decision but I won't give in and re-book the flights. (I have a ton of frequent flyer miles and could easily do so.) Thanks for keeping me in prayer. There was a time (and I pray that I'll get there again)that I realized the power and importance of prayer. I know I did the right thing. I'll just be glad when it "feels right" because right now it all feels so wrong.<P>Thanks again for replying. It really helps me!

azhootie,<P>Wahoo! You made the right decision. Doesn't it feel great? I tell you, you have made my day brighter!!

2sad4words ~ I wish I could say that if feels great. Right now if feels horrible. Right now all I can think about is how I wish he could hold me. Having said that, I know in time I will feel good about it. For now, I am just trying to find some peace and comfort in knowing in my heart it was right. Glad I could brighten SOMEONE'S day!!!

I have just prayed for God to send you a man who will love you and want to restore your relationship with God. The man you have been seeing obviously does not love you or he would not want you to continue in a relationship with him that keeps you away from God. Let me remind you of something, GOD LOVES YOU!! He has a wonderful plan for your life and possibly a man who you will be proud to hold up to the world and say that this is my Husband. But whatever God's plan is, it does not involve breaking up a marriage, and putting more children through a divorce. That plan came straight from the pit of Hell. <P>You have resisted temptation this time, next time it should be a little easier. Remember, Submit to God, Resist the Devil, and he will flee from you!<P>May the Lord Bless You and Keep You,<BR>John

Thanks ISIT2LATE.....I've been praying for that very thing for 5 years.....maybe your added prayer will help. I keep looking at my watch......the flight I was going to take is almost exactly 3 hours from now. Wish I could sleep but I'm too upset to do so. Please continue to keep me in prayer. God Bless.....Judy

Judy,<BR>Praying and praying...you will make it. I am crying....wishing the OW would have asked someone to help her stay out of "our" lives because if someone would have I and my little girls would be waking up soon to their daddy and me to my H that I loved unconditionally. <P>Thank you for proving to me that all OW do have a heart and that they can stop.<P>Thank you<BR>Nancy

Nancy ~<P>Yeah, I guess many were surprised that some of us OW have a conscience! I think it's harder when the MM doesn't want it to end either. <P>Thanks for the prayers. I need them. I am feeling such pain this morning.......knowing that right now I could have been with him instead of sitting at my desk crying. <P>I pray it gets easier. <P>

Dear Az! Before you go rent "Waiting to Exhale" from the video store. It has a few explicitives in it, but I'm sure after you see what these women go through looking for love in all the wrong places and see issues from both sides maybe you'll decide not to go. I will pray for you. Also, my sister was involved with a MM. Turns out he had cheated many times on his wife. He even went to work and told other guys the details of their affair. Since we live in a small town you can imagine her shame and embarrassment. P.s. He still is with his wife! I will begin prayer immediately for you!! Lots of love!!<P>------------------<BR>

Judy,<P>You have enough opinions & above all <B>you share these opinions or you wouldn't say "talk me out of it"</B>.<P>It's now up to you. If I was a gambler & I wanted to bet my home in Vegas, would you let me?<P>ALEX<P>------------------<BR><B>Live fully and always learn</B>

PYT and THISALEX ~ I did decide NOT to go. My flight was actually booked for 11:48pm LAST night and I didn't go. <P>Today I am having an especially hard time....I keep looking at the clock and thinking "okay, I'd just be arriving in Baltimore right now ... that was at 8am my time) and even now, I'm thinking it's 5:30pm there.......we'd probably be getting ready to go out to a nice dinner. That sort of thing. *heavy sigh* <P>I know I did the right thing but it sure feels wrong!!!!

Hye, Az,<P>Way to go, girl. I'm proud of you. I know it hurts, but you KNOW that you have done the right thing. <P>Love ya,<BR>Cat (my real name)<P>------------------<BR>I wish I didn't know now what I didn't know then.<p>[This message has been edited by nobeswax (edited March 07, 2000).]

azhootie:<P>I'm glad that you decided not to go...excellent decision! <P>Hang in there! I have faith that you can do this...<P>Love,<P>Jill

Judy,<P>I am soooooooooo proud of you.<BR>You <B>are</B> building yourself already!<BR>Keep the faith... <P>Your action (to <B>not</B> go) is a true inspiration to so many of us here...<BR>hope for wayward, betrayed and OP too!<P>Your moral fiber is strengthening...<BR>Your resolve is growing...<P>It's time... as you build your own self up... to find a different man in your life... someone who would respect what you've done... someone who values the kind of fortitude and judgment you've just made.<P>You're bright... you're articulate...<BR>clearly a stronger woamn...<BR>when you make the time or the right time comes... you know the kind of character in a man you'll be interested in! And in him, I'm sure you'll find just as much passion (because it comes from you first!)<P>Prayers to a growing Judy... <P>Jim

nobeswax, Jill and NSR - thanks for the support. Yes, whilst it's true I did the right thing by not going, it sure doesn't feel right. I keep imagining how wonderful it would be to be with him. *heavy sigh* I pray this gets easier. Sometimes it feels near impossible. <P>Happy Tuesday.

Remember if you were with him it would be immediate self gratification with short term feelings of bliss tinged with guilt...but long term consequences to your integrity and innocent lives.<P>Instead of allowing yourself to imagine, try to link your image of your encounter to something dirty and decietful and ugly. Don't indulge your fantasy. <P>Instead feel good about yourself, your ingegrity, your faith. <P>------------------<BR>Faith, Hope, Love Remain,<BR>but the greatest of these is Love.<BR>1 Corinthians 13:13

Just think about all of the inspiration that you have given to everyone on this board. Once the fantasy of the affair dies down, you will start to feel really good about yourself, that you did the right thing, and you will be able to look at yourself in the mirror, and know that you are a good person. Stay strong. Guard

FHL and Guard, I do hope that I can look back on this and know i made the right decision. I mean, I guess I know I MORALLY made the right decision but I am still questioning it.... still, what's done is done, I am here, he is there and it'll all be over soon. I did break down and call him but compared to actually flying out there, I am taking it kinda easy on myself. I know that, too was wrong but this is more difficult that I ever imagined. Especially cuz I'm doing this for a family I've never met. What I mean by that is if I were doing it because I wanted it to end, I think it would be easier. Heck if HE wanted it to end it would be even MORE easy. but since neither of us does, it's doubly difficult. Anyway, the support if greatly appreciated. Thanks so much for taking the time to post. I know everyone here is in a great deal of pain and it means alot that you take the time to write to me. I shy away from posting in other's threads because of the position I'm in but I do read many of them and offer up prayers on behalf of the posters. Hope it helps!!!! G'night and God Bless.