Miss DI, You have really gotta change that name!! It's for zombies, and I have a feeling that you are not one of those.<P>A good idea for a prayer journal. I am not up to it, I guess. In fact, I am ashamed, but I have not really talked to God in a while since the "Why, Me, Heavenly Father, what have I done to deserve this?" conversation we had a while back. <P>Maybe I am mad, because the whole time that my husband and I were apart, (when he left me and was with OW, I just did not know about OW, just thought that he hated me)I prayed for him daily. Every day, every night. I did not pray for him to come back. I just prayed that he would be happy, no matter where he was and what he was doing. I prayed for the Lord to be with him.<P>My logical mind tells me that Heavenly Father has his purposes and that He lets people excercise their agency. I guess I expected my prayers to intervene. It's not my call to say.<P>Anyways, I was told that I have to forgive the nasty old skank if I was to get any closure on this. I was hoping that she would come along and say "I'm sorry for what I did and I hope that you can forgive me."<P>Nope. She lies, conceals, threatens, mocks, and pursued my husband until I told her to STOP! I feel sorry for her because she is a sick person. But that is as far as my sympathy goes--I have to change this in myself. I would hate to think of myself as a hateful person.

Posted twice, sorry<p>[This message has been edited by Bernzini (edited August 10, 2000).]

"I believe my x pursued om as much as he pursued her."<P>I'm starting to believe this about my W. It makes me sick to think she is trying to replace OM's wife as the mother of his children!!!! Pretty psyco! OM's W is a nice person and, unfortunantly, I don't think she knows yet. Hard to believe someone you fell in love with can be so evil and selfish.<P>"So while I wouldn't mind bashing in his head or his car."<P>OM is a former revered professor and mentor of mine. How about that for a kick in the teeth!! I thought of many non-violent ways to expose them or at least find a way to make his squeeky clean reputation suffer for this. <P>"My x thought that everything would be the same after we divorced, but she didn't realize how people look on affairs and when they turned their back on her..."<P>I'm glad to hear that there are still some who frown on A. W and OM are both financially set and it seems as though they might sail off into the sunset together with no repercussions for their behavior.<P>

I'm also glad to see(read) that others are feeling the same anger, frustration and, yes, thoughts of getting even. MAN HAVE I THOUGHT OF WAYS!!! Nothing that I would act on. <P>AC2