Dear Tooweak,<BR>I agree with all of the other posters on this thread: you need to end this affair right now yourself. Make it quick and clean--no second thoughts, no second-guessing yourself or him, just DO IT.<P>I was the OW in an EA many years ago during my first marriage. The OP was a MM, and we had this 'wonderful' friendship thing going. Although it never got to the PA stage, I remember the excitement and almost euphoric feelings I was going through. At the time, my own marriage was in shambles and I was just vulnerable enough to fall for some attention, and wow! did I ever fall! One day, it just hit me out of the blue that the OM's and my friendship was on a dead end street, going nowhere fast. He sure 'nuff wasn't going to leave his wife, so where did that leave me? I was just a convenient little fling on the side for him and that alone made me feel like crap. So, I broke it off, quick and clean. I never saw him again and refused all calls from him, etc. To this day, I do not regret ending our friendship. <P>One thing I discovered: until I joined the MB here, I never once gave the OM's spouse any thought whatsoever, other than she was 'in the way.' I feel ashamed about that now and heartsick at what she must have been going through. Karma is right! I am now in the other seat as most of you probably know from my other posts here on MB and this site has opened my eyes in more ways than one.<P>So, Tooweak, do the right thing and find yourself someone who is available (unattached) and start building a good relationship of your own. You are only too weak if you convince yourself you are, so take that big step and get on the road to true wellness.<P>Hugs..<BR>Winny

last weekend, MM told me that they expected the new baby to be here by Friday. He said that he would call me when the baby came. It's Monday now and he has not called me, nor have I called him. I'm GUESSING that the baby is here. Not only do they have to think about the new arrival, but they are also moving into a brand new home they had built. He said that they would move almost as sonn as she got home from the hospital. I really think (or HOPE) that I am the furthest thing from his mind right now, as well I should be. This site has opened my eyes a lot and given me more will power to be unavailable until he gets the point should he call me again. As long as I have people who are willing to help me JUST DO IT, I am fine. Should I have to do it all alone, I would probably survive no more than my usual month before I caved in. <P>By the way, NEVER have I seriously (or even jokingly) actually considered having MM's baby. Especially to break us up. I was just commenting that that was one of the only two ways that I could think of that he would get so mad that he would leave me alone. I would not use an innocent child a some kind childish game piece. I know that there are some OW that purposely TRY to get pregnant by their MM in hopes that he will leave homefor them or at least that would guarantee them a spot in MM's life for the rest of their life but that is the complete oppostie of what I want.