Just wanted to send a hug to you Orchid. You have helped so many including myself to see the light of how destructive affairs are and how lives can be absolutely shattered.<P>I know I will never do it again. I am taking steps now, before the temptation comes to protect myself against my own weaknesses. I can't control my H only pray for him.<P>I'm sorry. You're a strong lady (NOT a wimp) and attractive (because I have experienced a taste of what is inside of you). You will love again... <P>Regarding the nightmares and trouble sleeping, perhaps this promise of God will help you see that God wants you to get a GOOD night's sleep! Listen! I found your name in the bible!<P>"When <B>Orchid</B> lies down, she shall not be afraid: yes, she shall lie down, and her sleep shall be sweet. She shall not be afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it comes. For the Lord shall be <B>Orchid's</B> confidence, and shall keep her foot from being taken." (Proverbs 3:24-26)<P>"Be still, and know that I am God <B>Orchid</B>, I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth." (Psalms 46:10)<P>"<B>Orchid</B> shall not be afraid of evil tidings: her heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord." (Psalms 112:7)<P>When we are at our weakest, it's really great because that is when God is His strongest.<P>One more to think about at bedtimes...<BR>"And God said to <B>Orchid</B>, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will <B>Orchid</B> rather glory in her infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon her." (2 Corinthians 12:9)<P>Good night, Orchid!<3<3<3<P>[This message has been edited by BINthereDUNthat (edited August 30, 2001).]<p>[This message has been edited by BINthereDUNthat (edited August 30, 2001).]