Thanks HBH. Wish I could look down the road a year from now. It's time to grieve right now. Need to get away from him. The counseling helps me, as well as my friends here, and most importantly, PRAYER. Even my IC said my H has not had to face the REAL world yet. He will, just a matter of what he does with it. He's been running from reality for 40 years now, I don't give him much hope. Thanks again, I will be o.k., just wish I could see it RIGHT NOW!!! [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] <p>MOM