I'm so sorry you're going through this hbh. MANY Prayers and hugs coming your way!!!!!!!!!!!<p>DO what you have to DO!!! You've put up with a lot. He needs to take responsibility for himself - maybe he will - with or without you by his side. You were willing to stay by his side while he figured everything out. I'm sorry, but it's WRONG to drag everyone else through hell while you're FIGURING yourself out!<p>HUUUUUGGGGGGSSSSSSSSSSSSS

JUST MANY HUGS AND LOTS OF PRAYERS FOR YOU.<p>You are at the end of your rope... we're only here to help you tie a knot so you can hang on...<p>Love,
Cali

So sorry to hear about this nightmare HbH.
Wish you the best.

HbH,
It is the horrible disrespect of deceit that is so hard to take. Why couldn't he have just told you the truth?! H is a sad case.
Take care,
Estes

I'm off email for the night so I figured I'd post. Orchid, you probably missed my other post, I'm sure Jo can email you the details if you ask...<p>I'm down at my parents for the night visiting. Returning tomorrow afternoon.<p>My H sent like 4-5 emails after the one I posted. All of them talking about the mundane stuff and not one of them addressing anything I wrote. He was even joking around and stuff...<p>Jo, he jabbed me again before I left. I said "I guess we'll see you tomorrow" and he said "yeah, if you come back."<p>I just walked out. But it did zing me like it always does. <p>And you are right, he knows how to get to me and manipulate me by jabbing me like that and I need to just ignore it...<p>I didn't get my stupid lawyer's appointment on Monday like I wanted, so now that means I have to wait even longer...<p>What I told Jo earlier is that I figured out what I want. I want the man I have at home GONE - bye, bye - see ya' later. If that means he gets rid of him by doing some internal work - fine. If I have to get rid of him by getting a divorce - fine. But HE IS GONE. Whoever that thing is at home is not the man I want to be married to anymore.<p>The problem is that this does sort of come out like a threat "if you don't change, I'm divorcing you." But what I feel is "I'm divorcing you. If you ever get a clue and actually WANT to honor and respect me, maybe we can try."<p>It's such a fine line...<p>Anyway, that is what is up with me for tonight. I am logging off and won't be on until Monday.<p>Orchid - DON'T CALL!!! - I'm not home... (Unless you want to disguise your voice and try to talk some sense into my H... LOL)<p>HbH

10-4. Will chat laters. I just got on tonight. <p>Hugz,
L.