Hmmm...I think the more important question than can you trust her is....can you trust yourself?<p>Somewhere along the way, you started doing something you knew was wrong...and found a way to rationalize it...now, if you can do it in this area of your life...why not the rest?<p>She's told you she loves you...but not enough to leave her husband...and not enough to have your baby...and somehow, you've rationalized that as being "enough".<p>And the joy she is giving you (part-time) is preventing you from going out and seeking something that could be more fulfilling. What has happened in your life that has made you accept half measure as good enough?<p>Counselling would be a very good idea to help you answer some of these questions. <p>T