God in control----I do think you are right on target. For my WS I have noticed his inability to accept the Love of God and others. What he has now is not love----it is the feelings of artificial love. Committed, true love he runs from and he runs from God big time.<p>Unfortunately, I have a library full of those types of books too. I think it is healthy to be willing to look at a problem and work through it the best possible. I have grown so much in the past year and I know it is cause of the wisdom from others. That is how God teaches us and encourages us. I want to grow from this so that I am not stuck in any garbage to pass on to others (my children or gandchildren or friends) Bitterness and ignorance can be a strange combo.<p>Hope you have a joy-filled Easter, too and bask in the fact that God is in control and loves you immensely. I pray that you will "know Christ more deeply and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead." Phil 3:10-11<p>TW