Im Still standing - 05/17/02 02:30 AM
Im still standing and growing closer to the Lord thru it all. My W finaly called after not hearing from her in 3 months and I assumed shes at her mothers again. If i wasnt helping her pay her rent in the treatment home, she could not make it. During the last year we were seeing each other I was just enabling her to not be my W. She was not willing to "go againts her mommy". Im sure now she has to be handed over to whom she serves. Her mother is a very cold and cruel woman. I didnt give her a chance to say much. Im still hurt and all I could say was how was she. She said she was alive said she saw our son last week and then she started to break down and cry. Praise God... She is being humbled. I then told her that I loved her , goodbye and hung up after I heard her cry that she loves me.
I feel a little guilty for cutting her off, but I know Im doing the right thing. Im at a place where I have to totally depend on the Lord to see this thru and not on any of my own efforts what so ever. Im just going to rest in the Lord and wait patiently on Him. This is in His hands.
I do have a certain peace Ive never known before. Im realizing in spite of my efforts and the circumstances, God is in control.
I ask for prayer that my W would be delivered from evil and that this time she would turn her entire heart to the Lord.
Mark
I feel a little guilty for cutting her off, but I know Im doing the right thing. Im at a place where I have to totally depend on the Lord to see this thru and not on any of my own efforts what so ever. Im just going to rest in the Lord and wait patiently on Him. This is in His hands.
I do have a certain peace Ive never known before. Im realizing in spite of my efforts and the circumstances, God is in control.
I ask for prayer that my W would be delivered from evil and that this time she would turn her entire heart to the Lord.
Mark