divorce????Even when things are good??? - 07/17/04 10:38 PM
I am at a point in my R that I wish that I would have had the strength to have walked away immediately following the first dday. First because I feel like I lost a huge piece of myself through the process of trying to salvage my M. (I begged him to work things out and was quite pathetic at times). And also, for some reason, I look at my WH as less of a man for doing what he did. (I believe it may be the from the cowardice of all the lies and deceit.) I was always attracted to that sort of strong side of a man that supports and *takes care* of his family etc. Now, I view him much differently. My WH and I had been together for 11 years. He mainly worked away from home on the road but I trusted him. I loved him completely. Now that I know of the last OW, I wonder how many more there were. It's been over a year since the last dday. He has been wonderful for the most part. I couldn't have asked for a more attentive spouse as of late...but this feeling remains that things are not the same. Has anyone experienced this and then worked through it or has anyone tried reconciling for say a year or more and then figured out they should have just left immediately following the first dday because they (the BS) lost feelings for the WS? Any input would be greatly appreciated. I think I am headed for divorce.