Loss of vows. Basically divorced. - 11/26/08 03:17 PM
Now that we're getting past the A, I'm realizing exactly what has been taken from me. Some of the cherished memories from the last couple months were just a sham. And the foundation that our marriage was based on has been demolished.
WH had given me a necklace for Mother's Day after forgetting my birthday. The necklace is a heart with diamonds that says "I love you". I loved that necklace, but this morning when I went to put it on, I came to realize that it was just a cover-up. It really grates to think about how I was so happy and showing off to my "friend" - the OW. Once again played the fool.
And I'm feeling like we're basically divorced other than the paper. All the vows we took in the church and the personal vows we made to eachother were obliterated by the A. Especially when he says that in his head we were already over - the "Imaginary Divorce". We're doing good now and we're rebuilding, but I'm mourning the loss of our vows, our marriage and the memories.
Part of me realizes that this is a brand new start to build a stronger foundation and we'll be better than we were before, but it's still hard to get over what's been taken from me.
Is this normal for the BS? Is it just a phase and I'll get over it? Am I making it out to be more than it actually is?
WH had given me a necklace for Mother's Day after forgetting my birthday. The necklace is a heart with diamonds that says "I love you". I loved that necklace, but this morning when I went to put it on, I came to realize that it was just a cover-up. It really grates to think about how I was so happy and showing off to my "friend" - the OW. Once again played the fool.
And I'm feeling like we're basically divorced other than the paper. All the vows we took in the church and the personal vows we made to eachother were obliterated by the A. Especially when he says that in his head we were already over - the "Imaginary Divorce". We're doing good now and we're rebuilding, but I'm mourning the loss of our vows, our marriage and the memories.
Part of me realizes that this is a brand new start to build a stronger foundation and we'll be better than we were before, but it's still hard to get over what's been taken from me.
Is this normal for the BS? Is it just a phase and I'll get over it? Am I making it out to be more than it actually is?