Depressed - 02/07/07 02:15 PM
Good Morning To All!
DDay was in November and since I found this site and implemented plan A things have been going very well. There have been some rough spots but over all it appears as though we are healing.
Yesterdy however I hit another low. I have not cried in about two weeks but I felt this overwhelming sense of grief. There are times I think I cannot continue with this marraige after the affair but I truly love my husband. I am on an antidepressant and this helps but sometimes I am still so sad. It seems as though our lives are changing so much..in fact they have to after whats happened. Some things are for the better yet I still feel so alone and at times very unconnected to him. He has a very demanding job, and I know he has to work at home at night, it just seems as though there is never any ME time, and for that matter family time. We have an adult son who does not live at home and then we have a seventeen year old..great kid gives us no trouble but it seems he spends more and more time away from the family. He has always been so family oriented..he does have a somewhat serious girlfriend and this may be part of it but I am not sure he doesent stay away because of the hurt he feels. He knows the situation between his father and me. We do not fight in fact we never really have so the house really is not chaotic. My husband working so much at home never would have bothered me before but some how I feel as though is priorities are not where they should be. I have stopped asking about the ow and am sure he is not seeing/communicating with her, we have resumed our sex life and it is better than ever yet like I said at times I still feel so empty/drained and depressed. I work two nights a week as RN..thought about a hobby to keep myself busy but MY PRIORITY is rebuilding us...any suggestions?
DDay was in November and since I found this site and implemented plan A things have been going very well. There have been some rough spots but over all it appears as though we are healing.
Yesterdy however I hit another low. I have not cried in about two weeks but I felt this overwhelming sense of grief. There are times I think I cannot continue with this marraige after the affair but I truly love my husband. I am on an antidepressant and this helps but sometimes I am still so sad. It seems as though our lives are changing so much..in fact they have to after whats happened. Some things are for the better yet I still feel so alone and at times very unconnected to him. He has a very demanding job, and I know he has to work at home at night, it just seems as though there is never any ME time, and for that matter family time. We have an adult son who does not live at home and then we have a seventeen year old..great kid gives us no trouble but it seems he spends more and more time away from the family. He has always been so family oriented..he does have a somewhat serious girlfriend and this may be part of it but I am not sure he doesent stay away because of the hurt he feels. He knows the situation between his father and me. We do not fight in fact we never really have so the house really is not chaotic. My husband working so much at home never would have bothered me before but some how I feel as though is priorities are not where they should be. I have stopped asking about the ow and am sure he is not seeing/communicating with her, we have resumed our sex life and it is better than ever yet like I said at times I still feel so empty/drained and depressed. I work two nights a week as RN..thought about a hobby to keep myself busy but MY PRIORITY is rebuilding us...any suggestions?