Thanks for the advice. I hope to have all this figured out soon. I just know that it is going to work out and things will be ok, I just don't know which path God wants me on...
I am trying to do this so that my children (the most important thing) have minimal damage. My husband had no consideration for anyone but himself at this moment and is using them as weapons (letting them be out at all hours, not knowing where they are, giving them the car to out of town and even smoking hookha with them). One of the big issues we had was he wanted absolute control over the girls and who they were friends with, where they went and what they did. This is an absolute flip which is just telling me he is trying to control them for his purpose.
I have only been staying home for 3 years. I have been looking for a job off and on but now it has to be ON. In our small community, jobs are scarce right now. I do have skills and an Associate's degree but there is a lot of competition right now. But this is where, I have to believe that God had the right thing for me, I just have to be patient.
I do our taxes, so I have access to all that info on his income. I have no financial back up since both my parents have passed on and my sister is in the process of buying a new house, but I am seriously thinking of getting the divorce packet with all of the forms needed and doing it myself. My husband doesn't have money for a retainer either, so that should help.
Cathy