I made a stupid move today - 02/02/01 02:20 PM
Dumby me went to see where H was this morning. Pulled up to OW's house and he was there. Sat in the driveway for awhile than left and went to work. Called him at OW's house (Lovebuster-which I do not think it matters because he has no love for me I don't think) I was upfront and honest and told him that it was me in the driveway-turns out he did not know I was even there-I asked him what he would do in my situation he said he certainly would not call me at the other persons house. Why do I do such stupid things-why so I no just let him go. It hurts to know he does all this stuff to help OW and does nothing to help me. Family told me he is actually babysitting for this friend. I feel all I do is drive them closer together , now they will have something to talk about for awhile. I think I am having such a hard time because H just up and left and does not even want to try and work on our marriage, yet he goes out of his way to help OW. It seems as if I take two steps forward and one step back right now. Maybe in a couple of weeks it will be all steps forward....