update..... - 05/09/04 07:29 AM
I'm going to Chicago. That's where my wife is, right now, and that's where I'm going.
Her parents asked me to come out there a while back, and now, she has, too.
My wife and I had quite the conversation tonight. We talked for about two hours about everything... we were both crying for most of that time (which is good, because she never did that before... cried with me, that is), and she opened up to me about things she's never told me before. I think I may have finally got through to her.
I'm both afraid and excited about the whole thing. The even remote possibility that we could be relocating out there... and, together, no less... has got me going in so many directions. I need to remember what I've learned here... because, this will be my Normandy. 'Do or die trying' time.
One thing, however... she confessed to me that she had cheated on me once... while we were still together. I've known that it happened for a while, now... but, I went along with her cover-ups until she was ready to confess. She admitted to it, apologized, and asked me to forgive her.
I didn't yell, or get upset, or anything. I just calmly told her; "I know, already. I forgive you.". And, that was the end of it. That will always be the end of it. I'd already decided a long time ago that once she owned up to it, that I would leave it behind.
The main point of mine in all of this is that I just don't give a damn about who was right, or wrong, or who was mistreated at any given time. I just want my family back, I want us away from this god-awful city, and I want to move forward, and treat eachother with the proper love and respect we both deserve.
I made sure to tell her that I believe she's worth it. I reminded her that I promised to love her for the rest of my life, no matter what... and that is exactly what I'm going to do.
Please pray for me. Tomorrow will be my last day in Vegas.
Her parents asked me to come out there a while back, and now, she has, too.
My wife and I had quite the conversation tonight. We talked for about two hours about everything... we were both crying for most of that time (which is good, because she never did that before... cried with me, that is), and she opened up to me about things she's never told me before. I think I may have finally got through to her.
I'm both afraid and excited about the whole thing. The even remote possibility that we could be relocating out there... and, together, no less... has got me going in so many directions. I need to remember what I've learned here... because, this will be my Normandy. 'Do or die trying' time.
One thing, however... she confessed to me that she had cheated on me once... while we were still together. I've known that it happened for a while, now... but, I went along with her cover-ups until she was ready to confess. She admitted to it, apologized, and asked me to forgive her.
I didn't yell, or get upset, or anything. I just calmly told her; "I know, already. I forgive you.". And, that was the end of it. That will always be the end of it. I'd already decided a long time ago that once she owned up to it, that I would leave it behind.
The main point of mine in all of this is that I just don't give a damn about who was right, or wrong, or who was mistreated at any given time. I just want my family back, I want us away from this god-awful city, and I want to move forward, and treat eachother with the proper love and respect we both deserve.
I made sure to tell her that I believe she's worth it. I reminded her that I promised to love her for the rest of my life, no matter what... and that is exactly what I'm going to do.
Please pray for me. Tomorrow will be my last day in Vegas.