healing wounds - 11/05/11 05:21 AM
I HAVE ONLY BEEN MARRIED FOR 6 MONTHS.3 MONTHS AGO I FOUND OUT MY HUSBAND WHO WAS A TRUCK DRIVER WAS HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH AN EX. I FOUND OUT THE RELATIONSHIP CONSISTED OF PHONE CONVERSATIONS DAILY FOR HOURS AT A TIME OVER SEVERAL MONTHS, EVEN BEFORE WE WERE MARRIED, AND WHEN I WAS ADJUSTING TO THIS JOB AND WAS VERY LONELY. THEY DID MEET ONCE IN PERSON AND HE MEANT HER CHILDREN. THEY HAD SEVERAL SEXUALLY PHONE CALLS ANDEVEN HAD PLANS TO MEET AGAIN. MY HUSBAND TELLS ME HE ONLY WANTED A FREIENDSHIP WITH HER AND HE RELIZED THE SEX CALLS WERE BAD AND TOLD HER THEY COULDN'T TALK LIKE THAT ANYMORE.this ow was not a co worker lived states away and he totallypersuaded her. WE SEPERATED FOR ABOUT A MONTH I WAS COMPLETELY IN DESPAIR I HAD NO IDEA AND THOUGHT HE WAS SO COMMITTED TO ME. I BELIEVE IF THE 2ND MEETING WOULD HAVE HAPPENED HE WOULD HAVE HAD SEX WITH HER. MY HUSBAND HAS BEEN ON BOARD IN REPAIRING OUR NEW MARRIAGE HE HAS GONE TO MARRIAGE COUNSELING WITH ME HE HAS READ HER NEEDS HIS NEEDS. HOWEVER I STILL FEEL LOST EVEN THOUGH THINGS ARE GOING WELL. I SEE HIM AS A DIFFERENT PERSON NOW. I DONT HAVE THE FEELINGS I USED TO AND I CHECK EVERYTHING NOW HIS EMAIL, PHONE ETC.THE ONLY NEED HE HAD THAT WAS UNMET WAS ONE. HOW DO YOU GET PAST THIS WHEN YOU JUST GOT MARRIED? [size:17pt]I STILL THINK ABOUT HOW WEAK HE WAS AND DOUBT OFTEN THAT WE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO HAVE A GREAT FAITHFUL MARRIAGE?I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THIS HOPELESSNESS AND FEELING LIKE I WILL NEVER FEEL THE SAME ABOUT HIM AND OUR LOVE IS RUINED?[size:17pt][size:17pt] [size:17pt] [/size][/size][/size][/size