Re: WW is likely bipolar and histrionic - 08/20/14 06:24 PM
Originally Posted by mozilla
Sounds like people with bipolar disorder should stay single and be avoided at all costs.....
So glad you made an appearance. Of all the people that could really help StillKicking understand just how perilous his future marriage to Mrs. StillKicking could be if he's not careful it's you, Mozilla.
It's not that Bipolars can't have relationships and must be avoided at all costs....it's that anyone in a relationship with a bipolar must have a firm grasp of the illness and the ramifications to themselves and their loved one (the bipolar).
Your husband has failed to grasp that Mozilla even though he was a registered member here and supposedly read along observing your postings for some time. When you were told you were acting/thinking wayward here by melodylane years ago, instead of getting suspicious your husband came on board and tried to scold us. Little did he or we know at the time but you were actively posting on marriedandcheating dot com or whatever that site is called as Cordelia at the time trolling for married men to "flirt" with which eventually resulted in you cycling down the slippery slope of bipolar hypersexuality into trading pictures and hooking up with men there and apparently on ashley mad dot com (if your janedoe1967 persona on loveshack is to be believed).
IF your husband was monitoring you closely he'd KNOW you were apparently having sex with strangers you met on the internet. He'd know you were posting on a plethora of online forums with multiple stories and back histories. The ones I know about are tawandabelle, luriossi, mozilla, herfuturesbright (on the horror board ma), janedoe1967 and cordelia. I'm sure there are many more. Plus you've written some erotica literature using a pen name as well as a touching story about your first affair and recovery with your husband you wrote under your real name (I actually was quite tearful reading it because the story ends in reconciliation but I've been informed about what I believe was the future of the characters stories whereupon the bipolar wife continues cheating with multiple OM's on the unwitting betrayed husband).
You've taught me a lot about bipolars wayward wives, Mozilla. You really were liked and appreciated here on MB for years as you've been liked other places and forums you've posted on. I sincerely tried to help you and was very forthright with you about the challenges a bipolar faces. You write well and you know how to tow the wayward line in words. The problem is that it was an act. You just liked the ego kibbles and wanted to fit in. You wanted to be perceived as a repentant wayward without actually being one. You wanted to give marital advice and infidelity advice (including bashing MB and this forum for accurately figuring out you were/are still wayward in thought and deed), when you are the least qualified marriage and infidelity expert out there (unless you give advice to someone here like stillkicking trying to reconcile with his wayward bipolar wife...THAT you are an expert on).
Here's some of your best posts from other forums:
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06-15-2011, 05:36 PM� #18
cordelia.
Flirt In Waiting
I Love It Here
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Age: 46
Posts: 4,658
Thanks: 469
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Hmmmm....after my affair in 2006, I joined a marriage site that made it pretty clear that friendship, flirting, even overly generous compliments from the opposite sex was crossing the line. That having a male FB friend was suspect.
My husband doesn't know I am a member here. If he did he would not like it, keyloggers would flood my computer, and life would be difficult.
I guess I am cheating. Oh well....nobody can ever judge me as harshly as I have judged myself over the years.
cordelia.
Flirt In Waiting
I Love It Here
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Age: 46
Posts: 4,658
Thanks: 469
Thanked 1,427 Times in 943 Posts
Hmmmm....after my affair in 2006, I joined a marriage site that made it pretty clear that friendship, flirting, even overly generous compliments from the opposite sex was crossing the line. That having a male FB friend was suspect.
My husband doesn't know I am a member here. If he did he would not like it, keyloggers would flood my computer, and life would be difficult.
I guess I am cheating. Oh well....nobody can ever judge me as harshly as I have judged myself over the years.
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cordelia.
08-19-2012, 12:23 PM
I have sent pics before. I recently cleaned them out of my computer, so maybe another photo shoot is in order....lol.
I like receiving them if I know the person and I have asked. Impromptu pics of man parts that I don't know ahead of time not to open at work......yikes
08-19-2012, 12:23 PM
I have sent pics before. I recently cleaned them out of my computer, so maybe another photo shoot is in order....lol.
I like receiving them if I know the person and I have asked. Impromptu pics of man parts that I don't know ahead of time not to open at work......yikes
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cordelia.
09-03-2012, 05:01 PM
Desperate and ill-advised and years ago I ended up confessing. The hurt my husband suffered was heartwrenching to see. He wished he had never known. I now think that confessing was one of the most selfish parts.
09-03-2012, 05:01 PM
Desperate and ill-advised and years ago I ended up confessing. The hurt my husband suffered was heartwrenching to see. He wished he had never known. I now think that confessing was one of the most selfish parts.
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cordelia. marriedandflirtingchat dot com / forums - Ashley Madison Members???? ]
02-27-2013, 11:44 AM
Yes, I am a member, and I have never paid for anything...I guess because I just wait until someone contacts me?
I get a lot of messages, but don;t respond to many because A) I don't live in Minnesota, Australia, etc. B) If you actually live IN my town, I am not gonna risk seeing you at Wal Mart and C) Even for "casual sex" I'd like to actually know the person a little bit first.
That said, I have had a couple of successes and remain friends with them. But another poster is right. it does kind of get demoralizing after awhile because - in the end - it is pretty shallow.
02-27-2013, 11:44 AM
Yes, I am a member, and I have never paid for anything...I guess because I just wait until someone contacts me?
I get a lot of messages, but don;t respond to many because A) I don't live in Minnesota, Australia, etc. B) If you actually live IN my town, I am not gonna risk seeing you at Wal Mart and C) Even for "casual sex" I'd like to actually know the person a little bit first.
That said, I have had a couple of successes and remain friends with them. But another poster is right. it does kind of get demoralizing after awhile because - in the end - it is pretty shallow.
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janedoe67
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a serial cheater finally comes clean
I am a serial cheater. And I hate it, but apparently not enough.
I wanted to say that up front because it sums up everything. I�ve been married 21 years. In the 12th year of our marriage I had an affair with someone in my same field. My marriage was horrible and had been horrible for awhile, but it was still wrong. I felt like crap...and I told my husband about it. We managed to recover. He actually was able to forgive me, and I never ever ever wanted to hurt him like that again.
Six years later our marriage was just like it always was. I wanted a divorce had wanted one for awhile. But when my husband found out I went to see a lawyer he just....got really really upset and desperate. He begged me to stay and said he would do anything. We have 3 kids so I wanted to try, but nothing changed. This time I knew so much better, and I knew how to avoid getting to close to someone but I chose to do it again. I joined one of those married people sites and met up with someone. That was horrible and I threw up after he left. I let myself get played online by a couple of online players. I kept going back to the idea of divorce and separation, but my husband didn�t want me to leave. During the last 4 years I have had several affairs and one night (or day) stands. And chats online too. I went to an online group of sex addicts anonymous, but honestly I wonder if I am too far gone.
A couple of weeks ago my husband found something on my computer, and almost all of this stuff came out in several really long talks. I don�t understand why he doesn�t want a divorce, and I don�t get why he doesn�t want me to file either. He basically has made it clear that he won�t leave and if I leave he will make it as hard and long and drawn out as possible. The other night he asked me why I hadn�t cried or anything and I told him I just feel numb. He wanted to start talking about what I needed and I couldn�t stand it because I don�t have the right to need anything and then I did cry and couldn�t stop. I want to love him but I am afraid to love him and I am really messed up. He is a good guy who has only been with me and my track record now is a mile long. He won�t yell at me or call me names or anything and I wish he would.
I do not want to be this person anymore, but I am afraid it is too late.
Established Member
Join Date: Jun 2013
Posts: 1,628
a serial cheater finally comes clean
I am a serial cheater. And I hate it, but apparently not enough.
I wanted to say that up front because it sums up everything. I�ve been married 21 years. In the 12th year of our marriage I had an affair with someone in my same field. My marriage was horrible and had been horrible for awhile, but it was still wrong. I felt like crap...and I told my husband about it. We managed to recover. He actually was able to forgive me, and I never ever ever wanted to hurt him like that again.
Six years later our marriage was just like it always was. I wanted a divorce had wanted one for awhile. But when my husband found out I went to see a lawyer he just....got really really upset and desperate. He begged me to stay and said he would do anything. We have 3 kids so I wanted to try, but nothing changed. This time I knew so much better, and I knew how to avoid getting to close to someone but I chose to do it again. I joined one of those married people sites and met up with someone. That was horrible and I threw up after he left. I let myself get played online by a couple of online players. I kept going back to the idea of divorce and separation, but my husband didn�t want me to leave. During the last 4 years I have had several affairs and one night (or day) stands. And chats online too. I went to an online group of sex addicts anonymous, but honestly I wonder if I am too far gone.
A couple of weeks ago my husband found something on my computer, and almost all of this stuff came out in several really long talks. I don�t understand why he doesn�t want a divorce, and I don�t get why he doesn�t want me to file either. He basically has made it clear that he won�t leave and if I leave he will make it as hard and long and drawn out as possible. The other night he asked me why I hadn�t cried or anything and I told him I just feel numb. He wanted to start talking about what I needed and I couldn�t stand it because I don�t have the right to need anything and then I did cry and couldn�t stop. I want to love him but I am afraid to love him and I am really messed up. He is a good guy who has only been with me and my track record now is a mile long. He won�t yell at me or call me names or anything and I wish he would.
I do not want to be this person anymore, but I am afraid it is too late.
That being said, No, I don't think bipolars HAVE to stay single. It might be a good idea just as it's a great idea for stillkicking to chalk this 1.5 year marriage up to a bad experience and file for divorcing citing his biblical out for adultery. He doesn't HAVE to stay married to her....but if he does, he needs to know from people like me AND YOU that have an understanding of just what he's signing up for and what he needs to do to protect himself AND her from, well, acting like you.
As you said on that flirting site...no one ever judges you as hard as you judge yourself. I in no way believe your life the last 8 years has been fun for you, Mozilla. I do have sympathy and empathy for you plight, but you are very ill and very destructive as a lying wayward mentally ill poster posing as a repentant recovered wayward wife. I know your brain is tricking you into thinking you have important things to say on the subject of infidelity but you don't. Instead you should be focusing on your health and your family and begging your husband again for forgiveness and another chance after you tell him the truth about your activities the last few years.
I'm praying for you Mozilla. I'm exposing you because my wife and I care and if you ARE, in fact, actually judging yourself harshly for your behavior the last few years then I fear, absent coming clean you may just follow through with all the suicide threats you made in 2006-2008. The truth and letting others care for you and hold you accountable so they can help you control your compulsions is the path to avoiding becoming another sad bipolar suicide casualty.
One caveat...I have no idea what the truth actually is when it comes to you. Maybe your persona's, Mozilla, are all made up and you're just an author that researches stories by making up characters and posting on multiple forums.