Lisa,
Your thanks warms my heart. I must tell you however, I have never been the WS nor the BS. I have had a few experiences in my life that were not that happy, but not the type you and your H are having to face.
I came to this site for different reasons many years ago. I am after all Just Learning. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I really and truely am.
And that is the point, you and your H need to learn and see what you have and had before either of you throws it away.
I do know this Lisa. People are far stronger than they give themselves credit for, or that their spouses often give them credit for. At the same time I have met few people in my life, that did not flourish in a partnership where care, consideration, and respect were major components.
If you look closely that is what I am telling you. It doesn't take experiencing great pain to learn this, but I have been around for awhile, and learning about people is something I have always done, although interestingly it is NOT my profession.
I have also learned something else watching many friends go through divorce. There have been a few times when I felt is was warrented, but was probably wrong. But, most of the time the partners did NOT do any better than the person they were married to and often far worse. Why? Well, while people change and needs come and go, and feelings surely come and go, the things about a person that attracted you enough to want to marry them are still there.
I don't know if you watch Dr. Phil. Since it is on at 8 PM where I live I do get to see it. He has a family he has been working with. The H and W are two very messed up people. He asked them to take a series of surveys. You should have seen the shock on their faces when he pointed out that they had the same needs, that in many ways they were very similar. We pick our spouses for many reasons and then as the years pass we forget.
That is why I came here. I had forgotten. But, reading here, back when there was only one site to post, and seeing all of the pain, and listening to the discussions, I learned. I remembered what I had forgotten.
What I am telling you to do is remember what you have forgotten. Your H is much more than your friend (which is how I viewed my W <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> ), he is much stronger than you think,AND you could do much worse than to go through your life with a friend by your side. He brings more to you than you realize now, and it is much more than just friendship. He has a passion for you and this marriage, or he would NOT be where he is today.
Remember what you have forgotten Lisa.
God Bless,
JL