</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> So, I guess that's where my faith in my H comes from - from the idea that God knows my future, He has it all in His hands, and if I'll stay out of the way long enough, He will work it all out.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Ah. See? There is the crux of my problem. I took it back from God....

Now. How do I become less a control freak about this and be able to give it back? I want Him to have control over it again, because it was truly a weight off my shoulders when I gave it over before....maybe I became too complacent (sp?)....Trust is such an issue right now that even trusting Him is hard. D'ya supposed He understands?

I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to trigger you. I'd rather be Dale than Trigger <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> No more triggers today, YL! That's an order from the town nursey-momma type, crunchy, granola type person. Put on some music and SING! It helps. I swear that why God invented the stuff.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> "But, as Yertle, the Turtle King, lifted his hand
And started to order and give the command,
That plain little turtle below in the stack,
That plain little turtle whose name was just Mack,
Decided he'd taken enough. And he had.
And that plain little lad got a bit mad.
And that plain little Mack did a plain little thing.
He burped!
And his burp shook the throne of the king!

And Yertle the Turtle, the king of the trees,
The king of the air and the birds and the bees,
The king of a house and a cow and a mule...
Well, that was the end of the Turtle King's rule!
For Yertle, the King of all Sala-ma-Sond,
Fell off his high throne and fell Plunk! in the pond!

And today the great Yertle, that Marvelous he,
Is King of the Mud. That is all he can see.
And the turtles, of course... all the turtles are free
As turtles and, maybe, all creatures should be."</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I read Yertle the Turtle to my kids last night. They get a kick out of me reading Suess to them because I know it so well I playact it out. Yertle is one of my very most favoritest ones (this weekend it's Horton Hatches an Egg -

I mean what I said
And I said what I meant
An elephant's faithful
One hundred percent

I should've been an elephant).

It's almost time for me to burp, I think.

GC - Turtle, turtle. Yep. It's still a fun word.

Hi Idiots!!

I'm not a "resident" here,,merely a traveler, passing through Idiotville on my search for Sanity City. So far I haven't found it! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

However YL's post and comment--

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> So, I guess that's where my faith in my H comes from - from the idea that God knows my future, He has it all in His hands, and if I'll stay out of the way long enough, He will work it all out </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">reminded me of a message my grown son gave me the other day and I thought you all might appreciate it as I do....

As children bring their broken toys
with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God
because He was my friend.

Then instead of leaving Him
in peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help
in ways that were my own.

At last I snatched them back and said,
"How could you be so slow!"
"My child," He said, "What could I do?
You never did let go."

((((Idiots))))


Just passin' through...... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Newrly (or however you spell it) - perfect! Am emailing it to dwh.

I still think I should be down on my knees, but cannot make myself do it. I will soon...I think.

Kimmy - No worries dear, YOU did not bring Trigger in today - I let him outta the barn all by myself! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Letting go is the hardest...The Hardest...The HARDEST...no, actually...THE HARDEST thing I've ever done...and yes, in some ways it almost feels like I've given up, but yet I have such a peace about it...when I allow the triggers into my mind, I feel like I've failed God more than anybody, and I guess it's at that point that I have kindof pulled it back to me, almost like a tug-of-war; but, once I recognize it, I can let go again...that's my new motto - Let Go and Let God! Let God "what"??!! I don't know, really...I don't know what He's gonna do...I don't know where I'm gonna end up, but I know He has a plan for me (each of us really)...

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,' declares the LORD." Jeremiah 29:11-14a

It's so hard (humanly) to let go and trust God, but He's been there for you, even when you didn't know He was, and even when you didn't know you needed Him...He wants so much for us to rely on Him, and once you do, you will find how easy it is...it's not whimping out - it's not letting go of reality and going into a fog of your own, but it is a release, the lifting of a burden, a peace that passes all human understanding.

I know you'll be leaving work soon, headed for home...hope this one brings you as much comfort as it does for me...

Isaiah 41:13 For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.

In a way, it's a "Plan B" of the mind and heart, not necessarily against the one who wronged you, but against the situation, basically saying God is in control, I will not allow this thing to bring me so much hurt...God will see me through.


Dear Lord, Please touch my friend, right now, God, in the place where she is, in the place where she is hurting. Lord I feel her pain, and I ask you to help her, to ease her hurting, to restore peace to her mind, to her body, to her spirit, to her home, to her marriage. God we know that You are in control, whether we let go or not, help us to trust you, help us to let go and allow You to do Your work. Thank you for Your strength, thank you for an extra dose of faith, and thank you for being there when it seems no one else is. Amen

Love you Kimmy, hope you have a peaceful weekend! ~LemonDash

Nerly - that was awesome - copy, paste, print! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> Thanks - Oh, and you're welcome in Idiotville anytime! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Lemon - ya know it took you long 'nuf to nap that kid...didja sleep, too?

Thank you deary. Dwh is making goo-goo eyes aready.

Now what Lord?

- Kimmy

Um...nap...me??? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Embarrassed]" src="images/icons/blush.gif" />

YEP!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> I'm SO gonna hate going back to work - no more nappies for me!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Hey freaks.

Kimmy, does your offline email still work?

Not sure if I'm really a "freak", but well, I am an idiot, so what do I know?! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Hey DipiT! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

OK Idiotville - I'm off for the weekend, well, at least for as long as I can bear to be away from youz guyz.

Hope you all have a good, trigger free weekend...Kimmy called it!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

~LemonDash
May all your days be sunshiney, and may all your nights be filled with bright shiney stars...unless you actually NEED the rain, then well, 86 the above! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> {{{Idiotville}}} I love you guys...YL

I would like to announce that Richard Cranium has been named to the post of Senior Advisor to the Mayor.

Please welcome Mr. Cranium. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Morning idiots. Thanks Kiwi for the 4x2 stuff. Funny how it got turned around.

I am feeling so so headsore today. I don't know how much wine I had but I know I danced like crazy and had a great night (friend's 50th). I danced like a true idiot <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> .

TT, dancing like an idiot is acceptable, normal, practice around here. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Robby, is Richard Cranium (yes, I get it <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> )somebody you know that's being a complete dhead? I hope you're not calling yourself that.

Jen

robby please answer kiwi

(and yes i got it too)

It seems that Richard Cranium has been advising me in regards to actions with my W. I know it’s only been two weeks, but I’ve been anticipating this separation for MUCH longer than that. I seem to zig when I should zag. Nothing major. I just don’t FEEL like I’m making any progress… either way. I see two possible paths from here, reconciliation or divorce. I want to reconcile, but I’m stuck in limbo, not moving towards the sun or away from it. Just treading water, or maybe swimming towards the sun but not getting any closer.

Well, then aren't you lucky I went to a workshop at the Uni the other day called "having the courage to be yourself."

The speaker told us the following, amongst a lot of other stuff:

1. Identify the problem:

2. Identify the ideal solution:

3. Take the first practical step to achieving the solution.

Don't get anxious - take action.

Don't internalise. Look at your solution - will it give you peace of mind - will it be best for your total or long term welfare.

It was a very good workshop. It wasn't all about how to be happy at the expense of others - it took other's needs and feelings into consideration.

So.... what's your first practical step going to be?

Jen

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by KiwiJ.:
<strong>So.... what's your first practical step going to be?
</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I have no freaking idea!

Suggestions?

Robby - it's been 2 weeks already OMGoodness. You said you've gone a few places w/ her and the baby - how did they go? Did ya 'love-bank' and 'Plan A'??? Did you talk to her????

(an aggressive Brown questions the mayor)

"Mr Mayor, over here!!!!"
"Please, Mr Mayor, answer the questions!!"

<small>[ November 19, 2004, 09:39 PM: Message edited by: brown ]</small>

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by KiwiJ.:
<strong> 1. Identify the problem:

2. Identify the ideal solution:

3. Take the first practical step to achieving the solution.

Don't get anxious - take action.

Don't internalise. Look at your solution - will it give you peace of mind - will it be best for your total or long term welfare.

</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Ok. My last answer was a cop out. Let's try for real.

1. Identify the problem:
W & I are separated. She "doesn't know what she wants" and time apart cannot be a great thing for our M. My income is in the toilet.

2. Identify the ideal solution:
Reconciliation.

3. Take the first practical step to achieving the solution.
Be myself. Let her miss me. Plan A when I'm with her. Plan B when I'm not. Get a new job.

I asked her tonight if she had thought any more about our situation. She said "No, I haven't had time."

That could be true or it could be BS. Not wanting to give me the satisfaction of knowing she's considering anything.