</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> There are many people out there that would love for us to feel down for the rest of our lives because of our sins, but not the ones who truly love us. Embrace the forgiveness, it is a beautiful thing.

</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">You could have been talking to me when you said that! Feeling down myself today, that is why I visit here so much lately. Robby, even if they're tastless, I love your wit. I needed to laugh so badly lately. Thanks, Jelly for bringing out the worst in Robby. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

I am still having days where I feel yucky and dirty for things that I have done. It helps to escape to this place with all the other idiots.

uh jelly, i'm trying to LOSE weight here!!!!!

and talking about chocolate in front of me right now is a big NO NO!!! i love chocolate, chocolate is how i make love to myself!!! lol

God's forgiveness.... i do believe God has forgiven me and i gratefully and humbly accept His forgivness. self-forgiveness... for the most part i have forgiven myself, but that does not take away the remorse that sometimes is stronger than others. H's forgiveness... has not officially occured yet. He is willing to see if forgiveness and a future is possible, and for that i am grateful. He is loving but he is still VERY hurt.

well, i've always wanted to be a HS math teacher. but i don't think anyone in idiotville really needs or wants a HS math teacher. of course not actually having a class would make being the Idiotville HS math teacher even better.

Can I be Idiotville's HS math teacher?

cool, can you re-teach me algebra sinc I am planning on going back to college? Or can I just qualify by saying that FL taught me??

FF, sorry you are feeling blue today too.

if you are going to Idiotville's college, i'm sure just mentioning my name will be enough...

otherwise, i think you are out of luck!!!

i am glad i changed bosses too. the old one was partly a jerk but partly stuck working on a project that has no business being done. she knows that, i know that, most of the old group knows that but upper management refuses to see it. that is why i jumped on an opportunity to move when it was presented to me. i will be much better off in this new organization.

where did robby go?

Just caught up and now I've gotta run.

I'll be back later.


<img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> WELCOME BACK QUEEN JELLY BING!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

FL - I told this to someone who I love dearly...do not let your past dictate your future.

As for the "some people" who would like you to suffer forever....that's all they are, some people.

You are a good person. I mean it.

Love,
Kimmy

PS - I'm giggling. I think I made Jelly miss us by calling her last night.

You too, FF. Read my above post. It applies to you, too.

Kimmy you are exactly right, I was all ready missing you guys, but the call for sure did it. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Thanks, Jelly for bringing out the worst in Robby </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">If I had a dime for every time I heard that.....

I'm really good at math, I can spell anything. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Faithful, and FL. I have come so far with the guilt, remorse, forgiveness. I'm feeling really good. I do still carry bad feelings inside, can't even really give them a name, but for the most part I feel good. I know it will come for you.

Guess what I'm holding, a 4 week old baby girl. She is beautiful, I swear she looks just like me. Except she is blonde, and has blue eyes, and she is very pale, she has no teeth, but other than that, just like me.

No Robby, I didn't steal her, and I'm not back.

The baby's typing for you, right?

Kimmy, thanks. i am not letting my past dictate my future. i do believe i am a good person too. thank you very much for your vote of confidence, it really is appreciated and helps. feeling like i am a good person is not something i have felt for the majority of my life. for the majority of my life i felt i was somehow inherently bad. i now understand where that thought came from, it stems from what happened between my brother and i. and once i understood where it came from i was able to see the falseness of that thought. so now that thought really is totally gone, which for me is a miracle. being able to release that thought, that lie about myself which has impacted me so dramatically is huge and life altering.

however, i still have to own up to all i have choosen to do in my life, regardless. it is good to understand and be able to release the lie i have had about myself. that has allowed me to stop the destructive behaviour as well as own up to my mistakes and make ammends. and i am doing that, and i do feel good about that.

but somedays, the remorse still gets to me.

i know in time i will feel that way less often (like jelly), i'm just not there yet.

the trick is to find a healthy way to counteract how i am feeling today. skipping exercising and lunch is not a good choice. i just could not get myself to do either today (well i did have some breakfast, but it was small and nothing other than a diet coke since then).

so here is my plan...
1) go jogging after dinner
2) give my husband a back rub followed by SF in what ever form he wants, even it is strictly one-sided i know that i will benefit emotionally. and that is what i need right now anyway.

jelly, i LOVE babies!!! enjoy and give her a kiss on the head for me <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

oooh, 4 week old baby? I LOVE babies!! Give her a peck for me.

Thank you Kimmy and Jelly. I really needed the encouragement today.

Hey idiots, did you see this thread on the R board? OT humor thread

AW - Did you go to the meeting and find out what was up?

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by believer:
<strong> No slackers, except on the night shift. </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Good morning I-Ville! (and you to Believer) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

*slacker RIF yawns as he reports if for nightshift duty*

Oh, not you RIF - I know you are a very, very busy engineer. By the way, what does an engineer do at night?

hi rif and believer,

boy did i mess up, so much for my above plan <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

when i called, H sounded bad, i think i just figured out why.

i have a computer here at the house, that i use from home to log into work, and once logged into work's network, i can go to internet. only i use this computer, only i know how to log on to my company's network.

this morning my H asked if i could show him how to log on, he wanted to see something on the internet and his computer was acting up. i said sure and talked him thru logging on. he then used internet explorer to get to his web page.

when i just brought up IE, i noticed that the favorites button had been clicked on because there was a side window with all my favorites. i don't really use favorites all that much so i don't have many. i really only ever use the marriage builders one. however i noticed the last one was "yp" and when i put my mouse over it i discovered it was an old bookmark of a yahoo photo page of the OM.

i have to guess, H saw it. he is not home now, he had a late assignment. when we talked on the phone late in the afternoon, when i had asked him if he was ok cuz he sounded bad he said he was having a hard afternoon, then he asked if i could stay home in the morning, after the kids were at school, so we can talk.

now i know why <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> By the way, what does an engineer do at night? </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">You know how the road crews seem to always start working around the early morning rush hour or the evening rush our???

Well we engineers stay up really late at night planning out how we can disupt the most traffic in the shortes amount of time...

This works great in large cities... but not so well in small towns... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />