Bob,

I hope she "leans back" when you hug her, like KiwiJ does!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Good night Bob!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Heading out from work in a few minutes. We have MC tonight. Probably be it for me tonight. I will have to dream up a new way to torture the Mayor tomorrow.

'night idiots. Thanks again for the encouraging words. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

AW--if you read, hope Aussie is jumping for joy. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

FF - Good luck with the MC. Just pretend like we are there encouraging you.

you are very very welcome FF!! i am glad it helped and by the way, helping you helps me too so thanks for needing the help <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

AW - You got the boy yet?

RIF - Home yet?

Hmmm, I feel a song coming on. Anyone want to sing along?

Good night, I'ville.

I've had too many glasses of wine. Going to bed. Affairs are hard one the liver, did you know that?

Jesus age Christmas, you freaks were busy today.

And to think, I was actually WORKING!!!

You know, it is funny Robby, I felt a pep talk, some kind of inspirational verse, or somethin for KY brewing inside of me.

Or was that lunch? Hmmmm?

Inspirational verse. I GOT IT!!!!!

Can I be the Tony Robbins of I'ville? With all my depressing notes of late, it is FREAKIN PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!

KY, girl, email me. Kimmy (sweet girl that she is) has my addy.

Where is my tequilla bottle??????

And who the hell are all these new people.

I remember when it was just celly, KY, Robby and me. Now it is a booming metropolis.

Sheesh...and the traffic around here is TERRIBLE!!! Where the heck is RH? I know he is "basket weaving" with his wife, but he needs to get with the program.

Hugs fellow freaks! {{{{{{{{Id-jut-ville}}}}}}}}

DipiT: Right here. over-under, over-under. WTF? I couldn't even get the sexual innuedo reference.

Hey RIF, I know your schedule has been flipped on end, but hopefully, everything is going great for you!

hello i-ville,

i'm sorry everybody's not having the "best" day ever, ever. me either - but i'm trying really, really hard. there must be something in the air. all this emotional rollercoaster stuff. i was trying to put the "a" stuff away (for a little while anyway). it was kinda f-ing everything up and sucking the living ****e out of me (and liny too). i know he wants to just walk away from it and move foward ... can i do that? i'm trying. i want to give liny the chance to show me how much he loves me. (why can't i just enjoy him and the fact that he's still here?)

i know it really comes down to the age old question .... can a non-funny person make a life with a very funny person?!?!?! i just don't know. i think that's ky's problem ... what with her thinking she lost her funny. and then you look at now and rh (well they aren't a good example ... what with all the 'basket weaving") ... hum there maybe something to this. what do you idiots think? hum?!?!?!

{{IDIOTS}}

Brown -

You have no worries anymore. We now have a psychologist who specializes in basket weaving. What could be better?

Send those boys here. Yikes. I was sick today and off work, and I mean SICK! I finally got the strength up to walk across the street and ask my sons to go to the store (2 blocks away, with my money) to get some orange juice.

You guessed it - the orange juice showed up about 3 hours later.

believer - if it's not the boys ... it's the girls. our DD 3 yo is still up at 11:50 pm. the 11 yo is "play" sleeping. and i have to be up at 5:30 am liny won't be home for another hour. i'm sooooooooooo verrrrrrrry tired (yawn!!).

oh and our OS gave me $60 today and is going to ups @ 3:00 am (w/ the roomate). he used part of his check to get himself and the roomate work boots for tonight. "tag -in" our YS could of been working w/ them ... however he'd rather be trying to get on the schedule for the "magic store" or should i say "magic cart" at the mall selling cheap novelty magic tricks. which he didn't work at today. they have done this tag team thing for 18 years .... did i say i'm sooooooooo verrrrry tired!

anybody heard from RIF - is he home yet? anybody heard from AW & Aussie - they home yet?
anybody heard the voices in my head besides me?

(Basket weaver for the basket cases - hum interesting concept!)

Brown - Put those girls to bed. Get them on a schedule. My boys, when they were young, were in bed by 8:00. They were allowed to read, but nothing else. They usually started out reading, and then fell asleep.

The good point was I got some peace in the evening, and they turned out to be excellent readers.

Hang in there, things will get better. By the way, no word from AW or RIF. But I am sure that Aussie must be home, and hope that RIF is.

Hi Believer, Hi brown, not a lot to say tonight just wanted to say hi.

Everything is fine with H and I now after our talk. It's just weird that we don't mention it anymore out loud then both said it's with us every day.

I went back to my doctor today because she wanted to see me after a couple of weeks on the ADs and she said she barely recognised me I looked so much better. I feel so much better too.

BTW, Robby and Liny, about the hug thing. VERY funny - not. Men <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Also BTW, Dipiti, this sounds so petty but I was also one of the original Idiots.

Jen

Jen - Good to hear that the anti-D's are helping. Things will get better and better for you.

Hey Jen, I'm glad you're doing well. Aren't the AD's a beautiful thing. I have been back on the Wellbrutrin SR for like 4 weeks and I'm glad i went back on them. I feel like I can handle these ups and downs so much better.

Believer - I would love for the girls to be in bed by 8:00 pm, if LINY were home also. I worked nights for too many years - you can't function and chase after a baby when you've worked until 1:00 am or later. I did when the boys were little and after our oldest daughter was born. Now, I get to stay up until OMG it's 12:30 am (funny the baby feel a sleep about 1/2 hour ago).

A fond good night ladies (and gentlemen).

LINY maybe home in about 15 - 20 minutes. I'm sure he'll drop by I-ville.

Good night again -Brown

Night night brown, sweet dreams.

Mornin'/nite, idiots!!!

.!!!! i was defending you, dagnabit!

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">i know he wants to just walk away from it and move foward ... can i do that? i'm trying. i want to give liny the chance to show me how much he loves me. (why can't i just enjoy him and the fact that he's still here?)</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Don't think I ever responded to brown! But, I just wanted to clarify something. It's not that I want to walk away from it. I don't. I did it, it happened, and I'm/we're learning from it. I WISH IT NEVER WOULD HAVE HAPPENED, but it did. I don't just want to "walk away." I know brown knows this, but I want her to understand that I know it's there--for now, it's almost unavoidable. But so is the fact that I almost lost her and my family. That's why I don't wnat to just wlak away. I took her for granted for so many years--no more! That's why I said what I did a few weeks ago about triggers--sometimes they *are* good--they remind us of what could have been and what is.

weaver...i don't think i ever apologized to you directly, but i owe you one. I am sorry. You are also one here that steered me right, supported me, laughed with (or was that "at"?) me...and I fell back into acting like a complete a$$--the best way I know how to describe it: feeling like I was above it all. And it means alot that even with my untruthfulness a month ago told, that you still have the same compassion as back in July. Thank you!
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Anger is all part of the process Liny, for a recovering adict as well as a recovering BS. But mostly I think it is a good thing. Before you would gamble to avoid these kinds of emotions, now you are experiencing them. Keep a lid on them, yes. But don't try to bury them with old behavioral patterns such as gambling, drinking (of course smoking will have to go everntually when you are really ready to find your back to "you") and affair behavior.

This is where a punching bag fits into recovery Liny.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I *do* understand what you are saying...it's such a tough balance for me, with everything that is going on and my personality and my past history. I am a stuffer--well, breaking that mold. I want to let the emotions out, but know about the pendulum theory too--it never is in the middle. Even my IC said that I better find something for this release. Obviously, something that isn't harmful. My only really good friend had his "escape"--going outside with his baseball bat and banging the [censored] out of the trees. Good thing his neighbors really can't see! It's finding it though. I have very very very limited time to do anything. (Brown too--for awhile, she was doing kick-boxing and absolutely loved it.)

You're right htough. Anger is just one emotion that shows i *am* alive. And on top of that, I'm o/c--i don't want something to just engulf me again. Maybe a punching bag isn't too bad of an idea--Lord knows I've kicked the cr@p out of me over the years--along with my family. (Metaphorically, of course.) Hmmmm....Maybe a recovery present wish list?!?!? Eh, brown???

As tough as this whole process has been--setbacks and all--I really, really don't know what we would have done without MB--and Jelly!/Idiotville. Sure, we would have made it--i'm pretty sure of that. But I'm also sure we wouldn't be this far along. Thanks you guys and gals!!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

f-again...WOW!!! Whether FBS or FWS, one *HAS TO* respect your spunk and fire for saving your marriage--this is so 2 hours ago, but: YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!!!

PS-cr@ppy day at work--as expected--i have my meeting with one of the big bosses about that other thing at work--tommorrow night at this time when i post--i may not be in management anymore. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> (Although my immediate boss said not to worry--yeah easy for her to say!) brown's meeting went OK last week. We'll see. Please keep me in your prayers. this is something that's *not* really in my control. we'll see.

LINY -

You got it - not in your control. But I'll be praying for you.
How bout that F-Again? She's kicking a$$ and taking names today.