Where's Steve this morning? Cleaning rootbeer off his chonies or washing another check?

Know what we're having tonight, RH?

Homemade chicken pot pie. NUM! I even make the crust homemade. SUPER NUM! I'm starving. Is is 5 yet?

RH,

Sometimes I get the feeling you're hiding something from me, too. I have no reason to think that, I just do.

I don't know if I would use a pen name if I ever write a book. That would be like hiding.

Here's something to get you in the mood for Christmas, everyone....some "altered lines from Christmas Carols":

Deck the Halls With Buddy Holly

We Three Kings of Porridge and Tar

On the First Day of Christmas My Tulip Gave to Me

He's makin' a list, chicken and rice

Olive, the other reindeer, you'll go down in listerine

Sleep in Heavenly Peas

Oh, What Fun It Is to ride with one horse, soap, and hay

O Come, Froggy Faithful

Adn what's that line from CCR's song...oh, yeah...

"There's a bathroom on the right".

Maybe someone should tell Brown.


Now

I think it's the nature of the a beast, NOW. I know Nio doesn't trust me fully even tho I tell him nearly everything I can remember <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> .

How about "I'm dreaming of a purple polka-dotted Christmas?" My uncle used to sing that one...he made up lyrics and everything.

Hey De-

RH LOVES chicken Pot Pie, but around here, it isn't actually a "pie"....it's more like a stew with homemade noodles. If you're dutch, that's what ya call REAL pot pie, right RH?

Maybe I should make that Christmas Eve? The kids would hate me.

NOW

De-

I do understand why RH would think that....I want to know what I can do to change that? Am I doing something specifically that looks suspicious? I know the other day I wouldn't tell you my dream. If you want me to, I will. (RH)

NOW

I'M LONLEY!!!!!

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> it's more like a stew with homemade noodles. If you're dutch, that's what ya call REAL pot pie, right RH?
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Sweetie - them's chicken-n-dumplings!

I know hon. The only thing I think we can all do is be consistant in our behavior and reactions and time will ease the worry.

FL, honey wazzup? You okay?

RH....I'm going to tell you the dream.

Ok, I was driving down the hill (by the store) and OM was in front of me in his tractor. He stopped, turned around, and waved. Then he came to the back of his tractor, which became the front, (stupid) and starts mouthing the words "I love you". I asked if he was serious and first he shook his head yes, then no, then yes.....so I got out of the car (only the door was like a bus door---stupid agaain) and walked back up the hill to tell you. You didn't seem mad, you even seemed a bit cheerful, and you said you were gonna go talk to him, and you were carrying a rifle. That's the end of the dream. Can you see why I didn't want to talk about it? It's like re-living different things. I can't even get away from it in my dreams. It upset me because I thought he was doing this on purpose so that I would HAVE to tell you, knowing that it would be hard to do so. I have thought that before, that he did those stupid little things for that reason.

Anyway, there you have it.

NOW

RH....I'm going to tell you the dream.

Ok, I was driving down the hill (by the store) and OM was in front of me in his tractor. He stopped, turned around, and waved. Then he came to the back of his tractor, which became the front, (stupid) and starts mouthing the words "I love you". I asked if he was serious and first he shook his head yes, then no, then yes.....so I got out of the car (only the door was like a bus door---stupid agaain) and walked back up the hill to tell you. You didn't seem mad, you even seemed a bit cheerful, and you said you were gonna go talk to him, and you were carrying a rifle. That's the end of the dream. Can you see why I didn't want to talk about it? It's like re-living different things. I can't even get away from it in my dreams. It upset me because I thought he was doing this on purpose so that I would HAVE to tell you, knowing that it would be hard to do so. I have thought that before, that he did those stupid little things for that reason.

Anyway, there you have it.

NOW

{{{{{FL}}}}} Good morning. Hope you feel better soon.

NOW/DD: Had to step away for a few minutes...work you know. Yummm, pot pie (dutch of course), but DD, I bet yours is good too.

Yeah, I like the idea of chicken pot pie just to tick off the kids. Hey, they're kids, they'll get over it, plus it would make great leftovers.

NOW: The only thing I can think of is, couple of weeks ago, Greg called on a Saturday and said wrong number and then you never said anything to me. It's like why was it a wrong number? Is your number on his speed dial? Kinda bothered me, but nothing serious. I can't really think of anything else.

FL-

Me too.....but it does help being here with you guys! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

De- yes, that is true....that is probably the hardest thing to deal with.

no, i'm not ok!! i'm trying hard to be ok but i'm definitely not feeling ok.

i have been at my desk for 2 hrs now and have accomplished NOTHING.

i'm lonley and i feel like i am in the middle of the desert and so thirsty. thirsty for attention. we have not spent any fun time with each for so long. i'm lonley!!

DD: No, dumplings are thicker, like an inch or two, but homemade dutch pot pie noodles are about 1/4 inch think kinda of like an overgrown crust but mushy.

NOW -

I really feel for you. It must be very hard to have this guy living by you. I know women have a tendency to want to be nice - the good girl. So you might feel like waving.

The thing is, no matter what you do, gag, fart, sneeze, close your eyes, it will be interpreted by somebody as something that it is not. The very best thing is the passage of time, and working on making RH feel safe.

RH - Hang in there, and realize that your wife is female, and will not do the things that you would do. It is obvious to everyone here that she loves and thinks about only you. Got that?

now, why would you be feeling lonley. you have your H right here. so many BHs here would love to have their wife with my current mindset. mine can't seem to let me in.

i'm not meaning to complain. i know it takes a long time. i know i have to have patience. i know i have dumped a LOT on him. but somedays i just feel like screaming LET ME OUT OF THIS NIGHTMARE!!! and running away. and today is one of those days.

RH,

I don't know why/how he dialed me when he intended to dial someone else. All I know is he said he might want me to make a book for his niece like the one I made for that other girl, and his intention was to call his sister-in-law to ask her what she thought.
I'm sorry I didn't mention it....it's another one of those things that you don't intentionally hide...they just don't seem important. I guess everything I do or say is going to be under a microscope. The only way I feel like I can make you feel safe again is to not talk to any men.

I hate this.

NOW

<small>[ December 17, 2004, 10:21 AM: Message edited by: NotOnlyWords ]</small>

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> he said he might want me to make a book for his niece like the one I made for that other girl </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">why in the world would this guy be thinking about asking you to make some sort of book for his niece????

this guy sounds like a total jerk!!! he is so full of himself that he thinks he can act this way. obviously he has zero remorse. RH, i think you should go beat the guy up!!!

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> i'm lonley and i feel like i am in the middle of the desert and so thirsty. thirsty for attention. we have not spent any fun time with each for so long. i'm lonley!!
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Yah. It's been so long I wonder if I remember what to do if I got some affection or (gasp) SF. Of course, I'd totally love to give it a go!

I'm so sorry.