RH, did you take my chocolate cheesecake tarts, too? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

Morning NOW and even RH. Hmmph.

A word of caution: NEVER get between a woman and her chocolate

KY.....I'm ok, I guess. Before Christmas I got too busy to post....thought maybe I should get a job so I would have an excuse to spend more time here...
Then after Christmas...well, New Year's really, I just kind of crashed. Been sort of down and out, not sure why....maybe hormones, maybe the let-down after the holidays. Who knows?
A week or two before Christmas I asked RH what did he REALLY think of me ( I was fishing for compliments) and he told me he thought I was "trapped" inside myself. At the time I didn't really know what that meant, but all of a sudden I actually feel trapped inside myself and I don't know why that is or how to get out!
I know that he told you I as "triggering" last weekend, but I wouldn't say that's what it was....I had told him that the more good I see in him, the more I realize what he has done to "keep" me, the uglier I feel. I almost despise myself.

Other than that, I'm fine.

NOW

FA-A,

I don't know if RH took your tarts....I'll check around here later. Hang on a sec, I think my printer is jammed....now wait, I see something. What's that smell? WTF?????? There's something kinda gooey and brown and...........HEY!!!! It's your chocolate cheescake tart! OOOHH, RH is in SO much trouble now!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> I will punish him when he gets home. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

NOW

Crumbs...and she didn't kick me out (of the bed) either <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

<small>[ January 06, 2005, 01:27 PM: Message edited by: Recovering H ]</small>

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I had told him that the more good I see in him, the more I realize what he has done to "keep" me, the uglier I feel. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I understand, but what a grand gesture of love on his part, which means you are so worthy of it. He is good, a very good man, and he does want to keep you. What a blessing, what an honor for you.

You know what that says to me, you are worth it, you are a good woman. NOW, I adore you, through RH's eyes. I find you remarkable, and I'm a cyber friend, I can only imagine his depth of love and adoration for you IRL.

You are special, you are good, let him love you and show you. Feel your worth. Find your significance, don't be trapped.

People, like Water seeks its own level, I happen to think RH's level is quite high, therefore, you are way up their too.

Embrace his goodness, he is with you because you are good as well.

Wasn't me that took the cheesecake tarts. I don't like cheesecake or tarts. You know they put baby spit in cheesecake. It's why I won't eat it (that and the fact I don't like the taste).

KY....
You're so sweet, but the thing is, I don't kow that I should be looking to him or anyone else for my "worth"....I don't want to depend on ANYONE for validation. Yes, it's nice, but it can also get you into trouble, and if by chance it's taken away by the very person who validated you, then what's left?

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> I'm a cyber friend...People, like Water seeks its own level, I happen to think RH's level is quite high, therefore, you are way up their too. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Thanks Jelly. That was nice of you to say. And NOW, it is true <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

NOW, I hear that and totally agree, all I'm saying is obviously you are worthy from my perspective because I think so highly of what's his name.

If you can get a man like that, than that says tons about you.

I can tell you all day how I think you are worthy, but you need to tell yourself and feel it within.

Jelly also said: </font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Find your significance, don't be trapped. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I think this is the part where you have to rely on yourself for your significance/worth. I mean it's ok to get some validation from others, but not all. Lead your life, lead your kids, do the best you can, make the best better AND be proud of yourself.

All you can do is all you can do.

You can't do more than that. And as long as you did all that you can, you can be proud of your effort.

Now I'm just rambling, but I do still love you.

KY,

I know you mean well, and your intention is to help me feel better, and I do appreciate that, so what I say next isn't meant to offend you or imply this is what you meant. It is what I "hear" inside myself:

By saying that I am worthy because you think highly of RH, what I "hear" is that I'm only worthy by default, by association. I know I need to believe I am worthy without needing someone to spend all day trying to convince me, but how?

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">You know they put baby spit in cheesecake.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Huh? Are you accusing ky of spitting in the cheesecake? That may be grounds for a lwasuit.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">thought maybe I should get a job so I would have an excuse to spend more time here...</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">now, this is the funniest darn thing I have ever read in I-ville!!!!!! LMFAO!!!!
And RH, time to get those "jaws of life" and untrap now. (Oh, that's deep. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> )

Oh, sorry....mornin' i-ville. still feelin like poop.Still don't think Ive broken fever--one more day limit for me, then dr time. problem is, with D(pia)D can't get any rest. (ie yesterday she was up for 15 hours, no nap; today she was raring to go at 700. like she KNOWS daddy needs rest!)

side note with the weather...didnt get our snow, BUT lots of ice--absolutely beauitful out!

LINY,

When I was a little girl, my sister told me there was baby spit in cheesecake so I wouldn't want to eat any.....more for her! I believed her, and never ever ate cheescake after that until a few years ago. I should thank her, because that stuff is SO fattening....she saved me a lot of calories over the years. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

OK, so is your sister fat?

I'm working on a reply, hang with me Please.

Liny, we have 5 inches, and it isn't suppose to stop snowing for hours. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

BTW, I love cheesecake.

I was a waitress in a posh tennis club in London a long time ago where the chef used to spit in the soup. Used to think it was funny, now the thought of it makes me gag. TT

LINY,


NO NO NO.....she's, what shall I say, here?....

Voluptuous.

"More" woman than me.

A Cupid.

A Renaissance era nude.

Not fat, no no no.

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Tummytuck,

ARE YOU SERIOUS? That's horrible! Why did he spit in the soup?????? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Okay, let me quote a book, (The 5 Love Languages, by Gary Chapman) because I'm not saying this very well. I should really stick to humor, when will I learn?? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

It has been observed that among our basic needs are the need for security, self-worth, and significance. Love, however, interfaces with all of those.

If I feel loved by my S, I can relax, knowing that my lover will do me no ill. I feel secure in his presence. I may face many uncertainties in my vocation. I may have enemies in other areas of my life, but with my S I feel secure.

My sense of self-worth is fed by the fact that my S loves me. After all, if he loves me, I must be worth loving. My parents may have given me negative or mixed messages about my worth, buy my S knows me as an adult and loves me. His love builds my self-esteem.

The need for significance is the emotional force behind much of our behavior. Life is driven by the desire for success. We want our lives to count for something. We have our own idea of what it means to be significant, and we work hard to reach our goals. Feeling loved by a S enhances our sense of significance. We reason, if someone loves me, I must have significance.

When my S lovingly invests time, energy, and effort in me, I believe that I am significant. Without love, I may spend a lifetime in search of significance, self-worth, and security. When I experience love, it impacts all of those needs positively. I am now freed to develop my potential. True love always liberates.

<small>[ January 06, 2005, 08:55 AM: Message edited by: kyellow4 ]</small>

KY: Curious, but what book was that from?