I don't think I can take much more of this. I was on instant messanger and my WH comes on. We end up getting into arguement about how he feels about me. He calls my cell and demands to talk to my stepson who still lives with me. I said that I would have him call later because my cell minutes were over and I didn't want to keep running them up. He got back online and called me a B****.

Never has he called me that name. I can't even believe the man he is becoming. He knows my due date is this week and he doesn't even care how much this crap stresses me out. He just keeps on bringing it on. I had my stepson call him when I logged off the net. When he was done I got on the phone and my husband was still angry. Said that I will never F****** get it that I better not be sad when he finally files for divorce because I refuse to accept it. That he just doesn't think he doesn't love me he KNOWS he doesn't.

I asked him why he keeps saying crap to me like that. When I have done nothing to him. He said fine force me to come home to you F****** force me and see that that is wrong. You are just as wrong as me. He has moved out, answers to nobody and left me with all the obligations here. What more does he want from me other than for me to change my feelings of love to hate for him. I guess to make him feel a little better about it.

Well he ended up hanging up on me saying he didn't want to talk to me anymore. I called back his sister answered and gave him the phone. She said he threw it in the trash. Told her to be quiet because she takes up for me. And she said stop hurting her. Now he is packing his bag and said he is moving out of his sisters house. Guess he will live in his car or something. Of course now he resents me more because he blaims me for everything. Even though he created the whole mess. He thinks the only answer is divorce. But he doesn't even realize that once he gets the divorce he will have more problems and he still won't be any happier.

I just can't do this anymore. I am drained. I love him so much but can't understand how he can be so mean when I have done nothing but love him. I can't really do plan B because I want him to be there for my delivery. I just think that I blew it tonight with the LB's and arguing. I don't see him changing anytime soon. I think he hates me.

I'm so sorry you're having a bad night tonight too. It must be the way this miserable rainy weather we are having. Try to get some sleep tonight, and we'll start over tomorrow. Tomorrow has to be better right?

I sure hope so. My whole weekend has been depressing. I think I have cried a bucket of tears in the last 3 days.

Your in my thoughts and prayers tonight Kloe

FC...my bucket of tears overflowed last week...ugh. Hang in there. One thing I have learned is that all WH's seem to have this anger built up inside them and we unfortunately are the ones on the receiving end of their anger. Know that this indespicable behavior displayed by our WH's has nothing to do with us and everything to do with their insecurities and personal unhappiness. Please take care of yourself as you have a big day ahead of you! I have been taking care of my nephew today...babies are such a blessing and so fun to be around <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

-K

Me: 28 yo faithful wife
Him: 31 yo WH
Married: 3.5 years, together 5
His Affair: Started fall '03, exact timeline unknown
D-Day: May 22nd, 2004; he immediately left without giving a chance to respond or giving our marriage a worthy shot.
Plan A until Oct, WH meets with mediator to get divorce papers underway Oct, Plan B has started, I am supposed to meet with the mediator to discuss this divorce I don't believe in post Thanksgiving <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Go file for separation so you can get financial support. Do it ASAP. Then go and take care of yourself. Don't feel bad if the WS has to sleep in his vehicle, there are worse places.

L.

I do have a number for a lawyer that I will try to call tomorrow. I just want to see what my rights are. I do not want a divorce but if he files I have no choice. But I do know in Maryland before you can file you have to be separated for one year.

You know a lot of this is my fault. I get on the phone with him and we get into these conversations. I need to babble back or just don't even talk to him when he is like that.

I realize that he is acting like a typical WS but I just don't see him coming out of the fog anytime soon. He has so much phone contact with OW it is so sick. He doesn't care that his cellphone bill this month will be over 400. And we have no extra money to pay it... He is willing to risk everything for his addiction or the feeling of being "in love."

Right now he is totally not the man I married. Cruel, uncaring and so hurtful.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Right now he is totally not the man I married. Cruel, uncaring and so hurtful.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">EXACTLY...now listen to Orchid.

Feel better sweetie...try to rest right now. I know it's tough..but you need all the strength you can muster up.