I just found this out. A couple of months before my husband and I were married, he cheated on me. I know he is sorry, I remember who this girl is, and I know that he lost her number on purpose. I didn't know why he did it at the time, he just told me it was because she is "stupid". My friends just told me this a week ago but no one told me when it actually happened. We have been married for 6 months. I freaked out and my husband started crying. I know he won't do it again, but I hurt. I hurt really bad. He says that he doesn't remember when it happened. I do. He denies that we were engaged at the time, but we were. He is my best friend and I asked him why he did not tell me when it happened, and he told me it is because he knew I would have left him. I would have then, but we are married now. I am not going to go back. I wish I did not know. I was just feeling as though I was growing closer to him everyday. I don't feel that way anymore. I keep thinking about our wedding day, I resent that day now. I think about all the fun times we had and I resent every single one of them. What should I do?

You need to read the material on this site (both of you do), on recovery from an affair, and your H and you need to implement it... Trust has been broken, you probably feel like you're living a lie.

It will take time to restore it, and there are specific steps involved. Your H's response to restoration will give you a good indicator of how you can expect the two of you to deal with serious issues down the road...