I wish he could see
The tears in my heart.
I wish he's be willing
To play the part
Of lover, protector,
Caretaker, best friend,
Before I decide
On my untimely end.
I could do it with pills,
Joined by bottles of booze.
A bag o'er my head,
I have nothing to lose.
You see, all that I had
Was his for the taking.
What did he care
If my heart was breaking?
I suffered an illness
He refused to see.
I thought I was dying.
I just wasn't me.
So he stole his heart
Right out of my soul,
Went running for comfort
And began his new role.
From his eyes there was hatred,
From his mouth, words unkind.
I could see I was losing him
Body and mind.
So I did some good deeds,
In the past he's enjoyed,
To be met with his criticism.
How I was destroyed.
From there he took it
To a whole new level.
Didn't know what he wanted,
I could go to the devil.
I ranted, I raved,
I was screaming divorce.
To awaken the next day
And feel the remorse.
His bags were packed.
He was set to go.
I loved him so much
And I told him so.
He said that he needed
Some time to think.
I took it from there
And went for the drink.
Just three days later
There came a bad thought.
I knew that it wasn't
The answer I sought.
So I called my doctor,
Told him what was wrong.
Through my tears he could see
I wasn't singing some song.
He knew what was wrong
Within the one session.
I wanted to die.
I was suffering depression.
So home I went,
The treatment I started.
Why couldn't we have known this
Before we parted?
I told my love
Of the news I had learned.
He actually cared.
He sounded concerned.
Oh, the joy I felt
At the sound of his voice.
I had hope for the future,
I had to rejoice.
Through the weekend I toiled,
Worked my hands to the bone.
I was determined to make him
A wonderful home.
O'er the next week he phoned
And came over quite often.
It was warming to see
His heart start to soften.
When one morn he dropped in,
I saw in his eye
The love that was once there,
And he said, with a sigh,
"Come here!" and he held me
So close in his arms.
The firmness below
Was a wonderful alarm.
With his sensuous kisses,
I knew then and there
That he found his way back,
That our love would repair
Any obstacles we faced,
And any to come.
Little did I know
There would be the big one.
As our love grew each day,
I knew we'd get better.
I was happy at last,
When arrived was the letter.
"With your husband, I've been
for eleven sweet weeks."
As I read on and on
The tears fell on my cheeks.
"Honest and caring am I,"
she did say.
"For years with you,
he did not want to stay.
We grew close to each other,
For weeks we did bond.
The feelings we had,
Became very fond."
She went on to whine
That her kids he did meet.
She went on to moan
Of his lies and deceit.
She honestly believed that
She did "nothing wrong,
But put trust in someone,"
With whom she did not belong.
"You have nothing unless you have
honesty and trust."
With the lies he told her,
No wonder they're bust.
When I look back upon
The time they did share,
He was a stranger to me,
Without a care.
I had told him before
Not to tell me of this.
"It would kill me," I said,
"Ignorance is bliss."
But because of her vengeance,
Her hatred took hold.
As I read the letter,
My veins turned ice cold.
By this time I realized,
My Love and My Life,
That we had to work through
The hurt and the strife.
It's horrific at times,
To say the least.
But our love will prevail,
To kill the beast.
The scars on my wrists
are proof to me,
Just how hateful and vengeful
Some people can be.
She had known of depression
Within my mind.
She had known that
Suicide was not far behind.
As for him, I have watched
The suffering and pain.
He asks God's forgiveness.
It won't be in vain.
For unto himself,
A stranger was he,
He lived with much guilt
While he was with she.
"I could never replace you,"
he tells me each day.
"I know that for sure now,
so let's find a way
toward a life full of happiness,
togetherness and love."
I know we'll be blessed
By the Good Lord above.
So strong grows our love,
Hour by hour.
I know that we'll make it.
We have the power
To overcome obstacles
Far and near,
To love unconditionally,
We have no fear.
As I come to the end
Of this saga, so true,
I realize now
There's no need to be blue.
For the tears in my heart
Do not live alone.
He cries along side it
With the love he has shown.
Our future together,
Strong it will be.
Together forever,
Just you and me.
So, Lover, Protector,
Caretaker, Best Friend,
Our hearts beat as one.
All pain we can mend.
