I hope that things are going better for you Catgirl. I too dread Christmas because of all the memories I have had with my WW. What really gets me is that our aniversary (Wedding) is 3 days from Christmas, and our daughter's birthday is the day after our aniversary. We are still M but separated. She has told me that she is filing for D, and is IMO already dating another man. I feel bad for the kids, and wish that we could reconcile and spend the holiday together. Its just weird...I hear songs of that holiday, and I cant stand them...I used to like Christmas so much, now I almost dispise it exept for the fact that it is the birthday of Jesus. If I only got one thing this year, it would be her coming back to me. I dont feel that I want her simply because I am still in the revenge stage. I probably would just decline her offer, and tell her that I am not ready for her to be a part of my life again.

It sucks to be a BS during the holidays but many have made it and lived, so we should be able to also! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />