Hi to all the wonderful folks here at Marraige Builders,

Finally signing the LSA tomorrow...it has been a long tedious process...my x is so full of anger and bitterness...I'm so tired of all this.

He says after this is all over he would like to be friends...I've done my best to forgive and move on everyday...but the abuse...I will never..."be his friend."

In June OW and her three kids will move in to the old marital home...I'm in the midst of moving out.

I'm in the midst of job searching...

Oh yeah...all of you who thought I'd get hurt back in December...lust...rebound...you were right...

Been on match.com...

Been talking to a guy I like...I think he likes me...believe me...no falling fast anymore!!!

Renovating the house I'm moving into...very, very busy

Boys seem to be adjusting just fine now...don't mind ow and her children or the fact the x lives with her during his "off" week.

Still wrestle with some bitterness, self-pity, depression, doubt about my future...once LSA is signed and I'm outta this house things will be better...when I get a job...better yet.

Thanks for stopping in for an update...somedays I just put one foot in front of the other...keeping my eyes on the light...other days I feel like I am light...then I feel kissed by God and blessed and closer to recovery.

To anyone who feels lonely...when the feeling is there...remember it doesn't last forever...keep believing, have faith.

Thanks for support here over the last 24 months. They've been difficult...very...I never want to repeat them...there have been some good folks here who have helped get me to another, better place...after proving to myself...that there was nothing left in this marraige.

Lamplight/LWP36

Just checking...

it's been slow here. I do remember you.

Welcome back. It seems like you are in a good place now.

Hi Greengables....!!!!

Thanks for writing in and remembering me. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

I am in a good place. Surprisingly the closer I get to moving into my new house and the further I get away from the day I signed my LSA the stronger and better I feel.

Why, even my old WS saw me and said..."you're doing a lot better than I thought you would...you use to just say the words, now you say them and it sounds like you mean them."

This was music to my ears...this may be the only aknowledgement from him that I'm ok (in his book.)

As for him...wow...his reputation has taken a beating. He is nervous, lacking confidence, seems so insecure and unsure of himself. Really. I think he may not be sure what he has gotten himself into. Even though he says he does...he sure doesn't sound it.

Strange twist.

Thanks again for writing in. I'm happy...and getting happier.

LWP36

HI Lamplight!

I do remember you. I don't post much any more myself. MB didn't save my marriage --- it takes two and since WH would not respect my boundaries, heck he never even got to the NC part. He felt he was entitled to Skunkypoo AND a wife - after all he claimed he wasn't skrogging her any more...

Like you, I still wrestle with anger, bitterness, self-pity, and some depression, but the bad days are becoming less and less frequent. I'm growing, noticing some good changes, learning new habits.

I even feel peaceful sometimes.

We will get there.

Breathe and smile, breathe and smile.