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Hi Angie, No, haven't changed jobs, but what I did get about two months ago was a new computer and vista operating system that isn't always as giving of emails as my old system. I usually am very accountable to my emails, so if I don't respond, I didn't get it. This just means that I've come to understand that this is my valley and I have to go through it, there is no short cuts, no begging or pleading God to end it. I absolutely HAVE to go through it period. This is the ABSOLUTE TRUTH.... We have to walk through it so we can heal and become who G-d wants, so that he can bless us. No short cuts, no easy way out. We didn't listen before and now we get to pay the consequences and learn. At least we are learning instead of still running.
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84 D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09 WH and OW broke up 1-09 Started over 7-09
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Here is a good daily reflection for the day...
A CLASSIC PRAYER
Lord, make me a channel for thy peace - that where there is hatred, I may bring love - that where there is wrong. I may bring the spirit of forgiveness - that where there is discord, I may bring harmony - that where there is error, I may bring truth - that where there is doubt, I may bring faith - that where there is despair, I may bring hope - that where there are shadows, I may bring light - that where there is sadness, I may bring joy. Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted - to understand, than to be understood - to love, than to be loved. For it is by self-forgetting that one finds. It is by forgiving that one is forgiven. It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life. Amen. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 99
No matter where I am in my spiritual growth, the St. Francis prayer helps me improve my conscious contact with the God of my understanding. I think that one of the great advantages of my faith in God is that I do not understand Him, or Her, or It. It may be that my relationship with my Higher Power is so fruitful that I do not have to understand. All that I am certain of is that if I work the Eleventh Step regularly, as best I can, I will continue to improve my conscious contact, I will know His will for me, and I will have the power to carry it out.
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84 D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09 WH and OW broke up 1-09 Started over 7-09
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I just got word, my REDSKINS have landed. They are in SEATTLE... I am going to find out where they are staying and go meet them and maybe spend the night outside the hotel waiting for them to wake up. I hope to get autographs and pictures... I AM SO EXCITED.......I'm going to the GAME on SUNDAY...... I'm sitting in CLUB SEATS....... OH YES....... I'm so flipping EXCITED......... HAIL TO THE REDSKINS...............
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I'm so flipping EXCITED......... Great Queenie. Enjoy.
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Go Skins...
As long as they aren't playing Da BEARS... Mark
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Good Shabbas Mark, Nope they aren't playing Da Bears... They are in my very own backyard getting ready for the Seahawks.... And I get to go to the game... WOO HOOO Have a good weekend everyone.... Be good to yourselves and enjoy what you can.. It can be so fleeting some days.....
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I'm so excited for you!!!! Have the best time ever!
BS - me 56 XWH - 57
12/25/06 - Dday - WH promised NC. Plan A in effect. Thought we were in recovery.
6-3-07 - Dday#2 Found out NC never took place and A never ended. Found MB NC promised again, but WH would not write NC letter.
9/07 - Dday #3. Still lying and sneaking around. Plan B implemented WH wants nothing to do with me
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I'm so excited for you!!!! Have the best time ever! Ditto for me... I know nothing about football...but it's such a pleasure seeing all the JOY it brings TO YOU! Go girl!
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The only thing I know about football is that it is guys in tight pants - woo hoo!
BS - me 56 XWH - 57
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9/07 - Dday #3. Still lying and sneaking around. Plan B implemented WH wants nothing to do with me
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The only thing I know about football is that it is guys in tight pants - woo hoo! guys in tight pants.....slapping each other on the behinder
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BS - me 56 XWH - 57
12/25/06 - Dday - WH promised NC. Plan A in effect. Thought we were in recovery.
6-3-07 - Dday#2 Found out NC never took place and A never ended. Found MB NC promised again, but WH would not write NC letter.
9/07 - Dday #3. Still lying and sneaking around. Plan B implemented WH wants nothing to do with me
Divorced as of 12/09 after 36 years
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guys in tight pants.....slapping each other on the behinder And waiting for the balls to be slipped out. :MrEEk: So it was AWESOME. ABSOLUTELY AWESOME. I found out where the team was, what movie place they went to and that was so cool. I got to the game early. The seats were beyond belief awesome and they WON. It was close, they could have lost it, but G-d was so good to me for this weekend. I have looked forward to this since April. Well worth the anticipation and wait. I hope everyone else had a great weekend.
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That sounds truly awesome and worth waiting for. I am glad that you had the chance to watch the game. I can imagine you in the club seats, cheering for your team, glowing with joy.
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Hi Queenie, ...The seats were beyond belief awesome and they WON.... I hope everyone else had a great weekend. That's just great! Not nearly as great as yours!
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It's happening, the healing and living a new life really are happening. I'm changing. I'm moving forward, I'm imagining my life without what's his name.
My children are healing as well. We are laughing, we are talking, we are sharing, we are joking, we are accepting, we are spending time together.
And yet, we have been forever changed in so many ways. I was gone all weekend from my boys and I couldn't wait to get home to them last night. I can't even begin to understand how a parent can leave their children for their own happiness on a long term basis.
My boss invited me to her house for Thanksgiving, but the boys didn't really want to go or actually me either, so we were going to stay at home. But today, my DD has talked the boys into going over to her BF's father house for Thanksgiving. The boys want to go so I said yes. So we are all going to be together, while WH has crack ho all to himself.
I watched football tonight with my youngest son, then OS brought his HS friend over who was home from college. We were laughing and talking... these are the memories that my kids will remember.. How I was crushed and found the strength through G-d and here to get up each point by point and find a way to live again.
I'm happy inside, I'm free inside. The doubts linger, the questions remain, the healing continues and the future is getting brighter.
How can I thank you all for this.... How?
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84 D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09 WH and OW broke up 1-09 Started over 7-09
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I'm happy inside, I'm free inside. The doubts linger, the questions remain, the healing continues and the future is getting brighter. That'll do nicely... Mark
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HI! Just wanted to drop in and say hi while I was around. Heading to bed in a minute or two!
Hope that you are doing well, I didn't read anything, have to catch up on you!
Thinking of you! Rin
A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge. Thomas Carlyle
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Hi Queenie, The doubts linger, the questions remain, the healing continues and the future is getting brighter. ...sounds like you are getting some balance...soooo happy for you, Queenie.
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Good morning,
Thank you so much Mark, Luna and Rin, I would NEVER have survived this if it weren't for here. NEVER EVER.....
Rin, how are you?
This morning I really realized the enormity of just sitting on the couch, cross stitching, watching football, Prison Break and then Boston Legal and just being with my son.
There was no hurt, no sadness, no what ifs... Just normal, quiet evening at home as a family, although different. I am so blessed. I have my children, I have the respect and love and I have given them the solid ground to move forward and somehow create something "normal"..
How AWESOME.... for G-d.... Because his patience and his belief in me that I could walk through this and one day, have it be ok to just be at home.......
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84 D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09 WH and OW broke up 1-09 Started over 7-09
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