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Queenie...just catching up on your thread...I am so glad that you sound happy. This part is hard...I remember it well...it's hard to believe that once the A ends they don't snap right back to the old H that you knew. As believer said...the fog often takes a loooong time to clear. Hang in there...you are doing well.
Me,BW - 42; FWH-46 4 kids D-Day #s1 and 2~May 2006 D-Day #3~Feb.27, 2007 (we'd been in a FR) Plan B~ March 3 ~ April 6, 2007 In Recovery and things are improving every day. MB rocks.
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Yes, SMB, I know exactly how you feel and I'm really on the same page. My faith is in G-d and his plan for me.
No Still, we absolutely won't settle for less. Even though I had a very nice "chat" with WH. I realize he isn't at all the man I need in my life. He isn't my H he is arrogant, cynical, sarcastic and not someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with. His journey is just beginning, mine is continuing and I'm just seem to be more at peace with my role.
Believer and MF, you know how much I value your input and am so appreciative of the support you give me. I truly get this is a SLOW process and I'm out here enjoying life. I'm smelling the coffee, appreciating the day and just letting G-d do what he is going to do.
I'm making plans and moving on. I'm not sitting at home wasting my life away.
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There is a world of difference between being able to have a civil conversation and being non-toxic.
DO NOT COUNT YOUR CHICKENS BEFORE THEY ARE HATCHED!!!!!
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I hope your plans include getting out today and enjoying this gorgeous weather, Queenie. The vitamin D can do us all some good.
Sending you warm thoughts and big smiles.
xoxo
-L4
Me (FWW): 45 BH: 46 M: 11/94 PA: 2/08 (4 mos) Confessed: 10/08 DS10 DD8
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I got what you mean Cinderella. I'm not a fool. He is completely still toxic, the ONLY difference was that couldn't even carry on a civil thought that wasn't about him.
I'm not counting anything. I'm truly not.
Oh you bet Looking, I just came in for some soda and check on here. But back outside and with my torah shall I go.
How about you, enjoying the awesome day G-d has given us?
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I am. And it's not necessariy due to the 74-degrees (which is awesome), but because the kids are back in school after being home for spring break. Enjoy your day, Beautiful.
Me (FWW): 45 BH: 46 M: 11/94 PA: 2/08 (4 mos) Confessed: 10/08 DS10 DD8
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From Skinsgal
To Queenie
To QueeniesAdventures
It's been from Caterpillar
To Cocoon
To Butterfly
((((((QUEENIE)))))))
Thanks for including me in your adventure.
Recovery began 10/07;
Meeting my wife's EN's is my "thank you" that refuses to be silenced.
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It's truly my pleasure tst. I think the adventure is about to get more interesting for sure....
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Queenie,
You have probably heard this a lot lately, but the shift in you is so wonderful to see. You have found your power; you are very centered, and your strength is very attractive. It's been amazing watching you change. Godspeed on your journey.
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Come on Vladi, you have had more impact in my life. Give yourself some credit of influence on me. Good, great to hear.....now get back to Plan B and stay there!
Plan D June 08 Me FBS 36 W 38 Married 13/1/09 The best is yet to come, with or without your WS
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I can do that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Queenie,
You have probably heard this a lot lately, but the shift in you is so wonderful to see. You have found your power; you are very centered, and your strength is very attractive. It's been amazing watching you change. Godspeed on your journey. I could not have done it without everyone on here who has walked with me. I have found G-d's light in me. And that's what's so bright... His will in my life.
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84 D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09 WH and OW broke up 1-09 Started over 7-09
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Ok, you got me confused, who are you?
Are you Queenie my friend, or are you an impostor? haha
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Hi Angie, how are you?
Pretty cool isn't it. LOL.. What would have thought
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Today was a good day for me in that I spent a great deal of it with G-d. The weather was absolutely gorgeous and so I sat outside, worked on my tan and read Torah.
Mark, should you happen to read this, I was wondering what the differences between the psalms and proverbs are? I can't quite put my finger on the differences.
But here's what drew my attention today:
Psalm 143:1 - Oh Lord hear my prayer, give ear to my supplications.
143:3 For the enemy hath persecuted my soul; He hath crushed my life down to the ground; He hath made me to dwell in dark places, as those that have been long dead.
143:4 - And my spirit fainteth within me
143:7-10 Answer me speedily, O Lord, My spirit faleth; Hide not They face from me; Lest I become like them that go down into the pit. Cause me to hear Thy lovingkindness in the morning, For in Thee do I trust; Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk, For unto Thee have I lifted up my soul. Deliver me from mine enemies, O Lord; With Thee have I hidden myself; Team me to do Thy will, For Thou Art my G-d.
143:11 - In Thy righteousness bring my soul out of trouble. And in Thy mercy cut off mine enemies, And destroy all them that harass my soul; For I am Thy servant.
I could have become bitter, angry and walked away from G-d. But G-d knew I would seek him out and has blessed me for my obedience. I don't take this lightly. I know where my blessings come from and my strength to move forward everyday.
145:19 He will fulfil the desire of them that fear Him; He also will hear their cry, and will save them.
He saved me...
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84 D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09 WH and OW broke up 1-09 Started over 7-09
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148:8 Who healeth the broken in heart, And bindeth up their wounds.
148:5-6 is understanding is infinite. The Lord upholdeth the humble; He bringeth the wicked down to the ground.
148:11 The Lord taketh pleasure in them that fear Him, In those that wait for his mercy.
Proverbs 1:7 - The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge
For me, what does it mean to fear the Lord...
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84 D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09 WH and OW broke up 1-09 Started over 7-09
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I'll play. Not many of us on this time of night..... For me to fear the Lord is to fear His righteousness "For all haven fallen short of the glory of God.." and other things as well
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Mark, should you happen to read this, I was wondering what the differences between the psalms and proverbs are? I can't quite put my finger on the differences. The word psalm comes from a Greek word that means "to play on a stringed instrument." The Psalms in the bible are worship songs, praise songs and songs that express a cry for help or prayers set to music. Proverbs are sayings that impart wisdom. Neither word is inherently biblical nor Hebrew in origin. Does that answer your question? Mark
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Yes, it does. Thank you very much.
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Hi
I don't think I have ever posted to your thread, but I have always been touched by your story. I just wanted to let you know that me and I am sure many others, have you in our thoughts and prayers. I am so happy for you that your situation is changing.
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