I was getting out all the Christmas decorations and came across a small box that I packed during the move… in it were all the ornaments that X-WH had given me during our marriage. It was a tradition that on my birthday every year (1 Dec) he would pick out an ornament that symbolized our love for each other to add to the others on the tree.
In hindsight I should have just left them instead of packing them and bringing them with me, but at the time I was still very much in love with him and still hoping we could salvage things and I couldn’t bare to leave or dispose of them.
Anyway here I am 13 months past D-day with the Divorce final and I really have moved on and have accepted that he is no longer the man I fell in love with and I know I am much better off without him and honestly do not want him back. But what to do with these ornaments now? I still can’t bare to throw them away for they once meant so much to both of us, but at the same time I no longer wish to keep them and they certainly don’t have a place on my tree anymore… so what to do with them?
SO… I was in the grocery store last week and was browsing the Christmas Cards and I came across this one: There are 5 elves on a table bent over with their pants pulled down in front of Santa… and the caption reads “The day the elves won the lottery” and on the inside it simply states “Merry Christmas”. I found myself laughing and yes… thinking of XWH.
I bought the card, signed it simply Susan and wrapped each of the ornaments in tissue paper. I carefully packed them in a box, laid the card on top and mailed it to him.
Many of you may not agree with what I did, but doing so really was my last step towards acceptance and healing. My thought process was that since it was him who threw our marriage away without even trying to salvage it then it should also be him that throws away these last memories of our life together. I wasn’t comfortable with disposing of them myself but I am totally at peace with him doing so.
Not sure that it will have any effect on him whatsoever… but I sure feel better. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />
