Is This The Answer?<P>Sometimes I wonder, when you’re home alone,<BR>If you ever just sit and stare at the phone.<BR>What of me are you thinking? What are you feeling?<BR>Does your heart for me, ever start reeling?<P>What of me do you think? What do you feel?<BR>Could your feelings for me, still be so real?<BR>So I thought I’d sit down, and try to think as you do,<BR>As I try to understand, what you might go through.<P>When will he page me? When will he call?<BR>Am I really still in, his thoughts after all?<BR>Why does he do this? Why does he care?<BR>Could it be that, he’ll always be there?<P>How has he changed? How long will it last?<BR>Could he be different, than he was in the past?<BR>Could he make me feel happy? Could he make me feel safe?<BR>What if I don’t decide, until it’s too late?<P>Will he protect me, or cause me more pain?<BR>What if this happens again, and ends up the same?<BR>Do I feel independent, do I feel in control?<BR>Or do I still miss him, in the depths of my soul?<P>Could he have changed, with help from above?<BR>Could he make me feel, that I deserve to be loved?<BR>How has he changed, what does he know?<BR>Could he possibly make, my love for him grow?<P>Does he know, who I am inside?<BR>Will I be able, in him to confide?<BR>Does he know of my pain, or even my sorrow?<BR>Could he provide a brighter tomorrow?<P>Why does he love me, why does he care?<BR>Never before, has someone been there.<BR>Why should I trust him? Why should he care?<BR>Does he know of my feelings, which are difficult to share?<P>Does he know of my pain, from when I was young?<BR>What if I tell him, what if he runs?<BR>Does he know of the feelings, of my heart I can’t share?<BR>If I can’t give him enough, will he still be there?<P>Why does he wait, for me everyday?<BR>When I’ve tried my best, to push him away?<BR>Does he care for me, or for what I can do?<BR>How do I know, his feelings are true?<P>Why does he look at me, and see only good?<BR>After finally knowing, of my childhood?<BR>Does he know I feel guilty, does he know I feel shame?<BR>How can he love me, and not see the same?<P>Does he really love me, for just who I am?<BR>Am I good enough, for him as I am?<BR>It’s been quite a while; he says he cares more,<BR>To the love in my heart, should I open the door?<P>Should I give him the chance, to show how he’s grown?<BR>Can he walk me through life, and keep me from feeling alone?<BR>What if he’s sincere, and the changes will last,<BR>Is it fair for me to judge him, based only on the past?<P>Should I give him my love, should I give him my soul?<BR>Do I believe in our love, enough to be vulnerable?<BR>Do I trust him enough, to give him my heart?<BR>Do I trust him enough, to make a new start?<P>Should I put all my faith, and trust in above,<BR>Does he have the gift, to make me feel loved?<BR>Could this finally be the one, could this one be real?<BR>Have I found someone who cares, and who knows how I feel?<P>Could this be the answer, to the prayers in my life?<BR>To live out my days, with him as his wife?<BR>What if tomorrow I look back, and he’s no longer by my side,<BR>Will I be happy with what I chose, or will I wish that I‘d tried? <P>So these are some thoughts, that I think you might feel,<BR>And also some questions, about the changes being real.<BR>Some of your worries, and some of your concerns,<BR>Some of your questions, about what I have learned.<P>It took me a while, to do what I’ve done,<BR>I’ve humbled myself, and started at square one.<BR>I tore myself down, to my innermost feelings,<BR>And built myself up, with a positive healing.<P>I’m now a different person, different inside,<BR>I have a flow of emotions, that I always used to hide.<BR>I’m full of compassion, for my fellow man,<BR>My concerns are with others, and I do what I can.<P>I try to give love, compassion, and care,<BR>As when it comes to others, I’ll always be there.<BR>To do what I can, to assist if I might,<BR>To give of myself, to aid in their plight.<P>I didn’t change overnight, it can’t happen that fast,<BR>But changes that take time, surely will last.<BR>I learned things over time, a little day by day,<BR>But I know that what I’ve learned, is now here to stay.<P>xxxx, I love you, and my feelings are true,<BR>I’m sorry for the past, for that I can’t undue.<BR>I never meant to hurt you, or cause you pain,<BR>I promise that the future, will not be the same.<P>I never want to disappoint you, or take you for granted,<BR>The seeds of our future, have been sown and planted.<BR>I would like to start over, as together we’ll grow,<BR>I can’t wait to experience, the love that we’ll know.<P>I feel I now know you, in a much deeper way,<BR>My emotions run true, there’s so much to say.<BR>I love you as a person, for who you are inside,<BR>There are no flaws in my eyes, there’s nothing to hide.<P>I love you for your soul, down to your innermost essence,<BR>I would feel blessed to live life, with you in my presence.<BR>You’re always in my thoughts, whether I’m awake or asleep,<BR>But when we are apart, my broken heart softly weeps.<P>When we’re together, my soul shines so brightly,<BR>Whether I’m sitting close by, or holding you tightly.<BR>Your beautiful radiance, enough I can’t drink,<BR>How could I be so deserving, are the thoughts that I think.<P>I want to hold you forever, to bask in your glow,<BR>I want to create a passion, which others can’t know.<BR>I want to take you by the hand, and lead you through life,<BR>I want to live out my days, with you as my wife.<P>I’m not who I was, I’ve changed and I’ve grown,<BR>Even this poem, shows a side I’ve not shown.<BR>I’ve changed in my soul, and I’ve changed in my heart,<BR>I want to live life as one, until death do us part.<P>I love you.<P>-xxxx<BR>
