Hi SS

Whats a break? LOL <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Lets see the grandkids are all back home and doing fine although daycare for my D and SIL is very expensive.
Right now H and I are alone.My S that came home from rehab in July started using drugs again just 6wks later it is so heartaching to watch your handsome son that you gave birth to make such terrible choices.He knows right from wrong,and I am past blaming myself for his drug use but it is still so hard.
The last 3yrs of my life have just been one thing after another and now H on strike,I think that I have slipped back into a depression and I am not sure right now how to get out.Today there seems to be no joy in life.

But alas this to shall pass. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Dear Star..
Wow what a wonderful ending to a very very exciting and exhausting life. I only wish more of us had the strength and ability to get passed things that seem so major and really are not. I admire you and all your accomplishments. You were brought to Mb for a purpose and that purpose was to help people and show them that when you think you are down, your not really down your just not on your feet. I thank you for the posts you have made on my thread , you make so much sense of things that i find hard to . Thank you so much you are an inspiration to me, and Im sure lots others... Hurtinhart...

Ginger,,

Hi there,, Im so glad i came to your thread ... You keep so much inside of you, and im here to talk when ever you need to . Im so sorry about your daughter but im sure she is going to be just fine. I learned today that you have more on your mind than you say. I only wish I could do something to help you. Your not alone although it may feel that way. And your son, You are a wonderful mother and he is chosing to do bad for himself. I pray that god gives you a break in the bad luck you have had over the past three years. Ginger I know exactly how you are feeling about the one year mark. All I can say to you is you will get passed it. Try not to think of it as the day you found out. It only tears you apart more and more. Believe me I have been there done that. You and I have talked about these things and we know what we have to do. I know each day brings a different burden , but you can do it , I know you can,, your friend hurtinhart

I think that I have slipped back into a depression and I am not sure right now how to get out.Today there seems to be no joy in life.

But alas this to shall pass.

There may have been little joy when you wrote that, but it's tomorrow now, so party on !! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Hey, I know life is tough sometimes. (most of the time?)

You have to find ways to be happy even with all the bad stuff. Lets count your blessings for a few minutes.

1. You weren't hit by a meteor this year, or even last year!

2. No shark bites this week.

3. Your H is on strike, but still has his union.

4. You live in a country that grants you freedom.

5. You can see, you have both hands, you are not in a wheelchair.

6. You have friends that love you.

7. Your son is still alive, and has a chance to change.

8. You gave your H another chance - and he took it.

9. Everyone on MB likes you.

10. God knows you and helps you even when you wonder if there is anyone there.


Hey, laugh a little, cry a little, but know that we are here and we care.

SS

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<img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> Ok let me wipe my face up and stop acting like a big boob. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Thank you all so much.I do count my blessings and thank God for all I have.I have never been the one to sit around and and look at all the bad,the A really has made a different person out of me.I am trying so hard to be me again,its just really hard right now.

Of all the hardships I have faced in life nothing has sucked the life out of me like this.I know it is up to me to find peace and happiness and I know that I will one day.As for today I am ok,not great but ok.

^bumping for the holidays <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Wow this is a really old thread,where in the world did you find it...........LOL <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I'm the "search queen" didn't you know that chere? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Cool]" src="images/icons/cool.gif" />

Star

Where have you been? We've missed you! Please update us with what's been happening in your life.

<small>[ December 03, 2004, 09:29 AM: Message edited by: SAB ]</small>

Gingersnap.....Your story especially touched me. Your husband sounds alot like my ex. We are young and had a baby young, he also smokes weed (claims to have stopped for good) though he never really abused me, he has pushed me around before. His biggest problem was the cheating. Gingersnap, looking at yourself now and what you could have changed in the past, what kind of advice would you offer me? As of now I know I will not get back with him anytime soon. But he is desperatly trying to save our relationship ever since he found out I dated someone else about 2 months ago. He says that was the turning point for him and never wants to feel those horrible feelings that he had lost me for ever.

SAB
I am here,reading just not posting much.I am not doing all that well right now,I feel myself slipping into a depression so I have tried to stay away.I'm sure everyone hear is wondering when will I move forward and sense it seems hard for me to do that I figure until I am in a different state of mind its best to stay away.
Thanks for caring.

xangelx
My only advise is that if you are truly happier without him then let him go.You are young you have your whole life ahead of you live it.Dont hold on to something that is destroying you because one day you will wake up and be in your 40's and wonder what happened to your life,and you.
If your M is the most important thing,the thing that makes your life worth living,the thing that makes you happiest then do all you can to save it.
Good luck <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

My only advise is that if you are truly happier without him then let him go.You are young you have your whole life ahead of you live it.Dont hold on to something that is destroying you because one day you will wake up and be in your 40's and wonder what happened to your life,and you.

Gingersnap, you set off a lightbulb in my head. Excellant point that if I am happier without him then keep it that way, and I am happier without him. I am terrified that if I give him another chance he will do it again, and I will realize I wasted more precious years of my life. I have already lost alot of good things in my life because of him, I don't want to lose any more, especially my heart and sanity.

Thank you

Please let me know if you need me. I'll be here...

Hi SAB, ginger!!

Well, my life has become so normal that it's unlikely to keep anyone spellbound anymore. My H left his job of 20 years for a new opportunity and he is ecstatic. It means we will no longer have to move. We bought four acres of riverfront property and we are building a house I designed. We are doing exceptionally well and our marriage is very strong. Meanwhile, I'm completing my training at IAC and symc...and should get certified as a coach by next summer.

hugs to all of you!!

Star,
You have been thruough alot in your life you deserve everything that is happening to you now.I am very happy for you.
As for me...............I am still waiting for my "Happily ever After" <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> Someday my prince will come!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Star*

You are truly an inspiration for us all showing that dreams can come true! Please send us pictures when it's done. I'd love it see it <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> . I'm so very happy that things are going so well for you. Please don't stay away too long. We miss you around here.

Ginger:

I'm sure he will. Who needs a prince anyway? His presence in our lives is just a preference. Be strong. He could be wonderful in every sense of the word and turn out to be a real "prince" [sarcasm]. Be happy! Remember to count your blessings.

Hugs to both of you.

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