Wishing you all Gods blessings of Joy and Peace in year of our Lord, 2000.<P>I had some great insights yesterday that I wanted to share with you, particularly for William J, (great post on postive thinking).<P>A friend of mine who I hadn't told all that was going on, just the separation, a few weeks ago really pissed me off with his challenging me on my using the term "If" in the context of reconciliation. I've never been one to buy into the "name and claim it" theology. Saying it's so, doesn't make it so and it negates the fact the W has a free will.<P>However, yesterday, talking with him again, the Holy Spirit spoke to me and Praise God, he showed me that by expressing doubt, I am doubting God and letting Satan continue to lie to me.<P>Then I remembered that I have always known the power of visulizing success. Quit frankly, it's how I believe I was blessed with W to begin with. I had spent a year praying for my mate. Visualizing our relationship, believing in God and Trusting Him to bring this person into my life. He did, we have many good memories and we used to be best friends.<P>Now I realize that that is exactly what I need to do now. Visualize how reconciliation, picture my W looking at me with affection and admiringly, loving me. Feel her embrace.<P>And no more talk about "if" to myself. I know to be careful in how I refer to our reconciliation with her. I know that if I use terms like "when" with her and not "if" I may scare her, implying to her that she has no choice, so I'll be prayful about that as I speak with her.<P><BR>This New Years was very difficult for me to think about being alone. I mean think about the age we live. We read about people alive at the last turn of the century. In the big picture, few people live to see the turn of the century, let alone the turn of the millinum, (although truth is that doesn't happen til next year, don't believe me..count a decade, it ends with 10, not 9). <P>Anyway, I have thought about this date for over 20 years and would never in my wildest imagination thought I wouldn't be with my family.<P>Well, I went to a hilltop in a nearby State Park and watched the stars and enjoyed being in the presence of God, pouring my heart out to Him and letting his Spirit fill my heart and soul.<P>Today is much brighter, not that tommorow I won't be wollowing again, but I invite anyone hurting now and lonely, to look upward and feel God's unendless love.<P>"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths." Proverbs 3 5:6

A spiritual counselor told me that in my affair not to look at it as something I cnat have. To look at it as something that i will have. I now know how it can be. I have had a taste of it. And for 2000 that is what I will have. It is in Gods hands now. im leaving it up to him. It is his decision to give me who it will be with. God Bless!

Repenting,<P>"However, yesterday, talking with him again, the Holy Spirit spoke to me and Praise God, he showed me that by expressing doubt, I am doubting God and letting Satan continue to lie to me."<P>Brillint point!!<P>I like this Proverb;"commit to the Lord what ever you do, and your plans will succeed" Proverbs16:3<P>Thank you for shareing your faith.<P>Bill<P><P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

What a beautiful post. I am so glad you shared it. So much of how we deal with things comes from attitude. We must adopt the best attitude in order to survive in this, the fight of our lives. You are well on your way to reclaiming your marriage!!! <P>------------------<BR>Love and Prayers<BR>Nicole<P><BR>

I'm scared as hell. As the time is getting closer to disclosure, I'm having some feelings of doubt if I should. I believe that I should, but I am so scared. I'm trying to set it up for this week, maybe Wednesday. I see the counselor on Monday, she sees him on Thursday. I'm thinking about talking with her with her sister and brother in law present, Anyone have any thoughts? Should I tell her about the length of the affair or wait for her to ask for more details? How should I tell her, what should I say, maybe it doesn't really matter as long as I get it out.<P>I'm trying to be strong and trust in God for reconciliation and I've had thoughts about if she feels she has the strength to work it out. She might not feel, even if she wanted to that she could do it. It will take a lot of work, but I believe that we can have a more intimate and close relationship than we've ever had before, if we stay in the fight.<P>TrustnTruth, what do you say?<BR>How about it Patient Love?<BR>Can you add anything Kyhre?<P>God bless you all, I appreciate you so much.<p>[This message has been edited by Repenting (edited January 02, 2000).]