<B>WARNING WARNING WARNING.... VENT TO FOLLOW!</B><P>I talked to my X today.... I have a check for him and tried to get in touch with him this weekend to deliver it (I was in his town)... <P>He called me today and said he was out of town this weekend, but I could drop it by this week if I wanted to ....<BR>For those of you who remember, he had "banned" me from intering the resturant where they worked.... Well, he said I could even bring it in there, since she was gone now.... Her H moved them out of state.<P>He was being so "nice" and "sweet" uke! and even 'lonely'.... Sorry @$$Ho%$, <B> Too Little TOO LATE </B>!<P>I have to see him tonight... to deliver the check (since he wouldn't pick it up - certified restriced delivery) and my emotions are all over the place.... <P>He had the nerve to tell me that the reason I couldn't go in there before was because he didn't want us to fight over him!!!!!! AAHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGG!!!!!! Get a CLUE--- last time there were words between us, she started it, she made a fool of herself, she attacked ME! I stayed calm and told her calmly to get out of my face before I had security throw her out.<P>What a (^(^#*&@^%*&@%#$&!%@$)*^#$)*(#@^%_(# #(^%@#(*)^%(@*#&%(*#@&%(*#@^%(*#%&(*#%&(#*@%&#)(<P>Ok, I feel better now. Thanks for letting me vent!<P>B<P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>

Butterfly:<P>Thanks for your post... I'm soooooo depressed today but I laughed when I read yours(maybe it wasn't your intension).<BR>I wish I could feel like you one day... Right now I want my H back soooooo badly.<P>Anyway let us know how the meeting goes..<P>MF<BR>

Butterfly,<P>Please vent anytime. I know it helps me when I can vent. These are crazy times and to know you aren't alone others are experiencing stuff also helps us all.<P>

MF, <BR>I'm glad you got a laugh out of it... it was only a half @$$ed serious post... I still have moments when I get so ticked that he actually told me "She'll be gone in a couple of months, and then you won't have to worry about her anymore".... uke uke uke!!! Like he expected me to just sit back and wait to pick back up again once she was gone!!!! AGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! <P>Snowbunny,<BR>I know what you mean... I'm a year+ 1200+ post "member" of this club. Sometimes it makes the difference between sanity and total bonkers just to know that someone else has been or is where you are.<P><BR>Well, I hate to admit it, but I woosed out on seeing X today. I wish I could pretend it was because my hair was messy, or my dress wrinkled, but truth be told I just didn't feel like facing him today.<P>I'm glad the twinky is gone, but I'm hurt that she had to leave the state for my X to be civil to me (well at least on the phone... still have to see what happens in person).<P>Maybe Thursday or Saturday. I'll let you all know what happens.<P>B<P>

B,<P>Let as much steam out as necessary. It helps so much to diffuse negative energy. Although I'm new to this site, I find it very helpful for me to: relax, self-reflect, learn from my past and from others, and grow to become a better person.<P>Good luck to you!

Ok, I'm Cool now.<P>Guy, <BR>Thanks, I have been doing really great lately... relaxing, doing things for ME, becoming a better me. But, every once in a while you have one of those days that just comes up and bites you in the @$$. Yesterday was one of those. Now it's time to move forward again, picking up where I left off on Sunday. I can do it!! <P>I guess I still need to work on letting go of the anger at being told basically to wait until she was no longer around and then I'd be first again.... until next time. But, for the most part, I don't let it bother me anymore because I've put Myself First with ME.<P>Thanks for letting my Italian Temper have a place to vent! I'm all better now .<P>Thoughts & Prayers,<BR>B<P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>

Her existence put restrictions on you. Been there, lived through that. Ugh.<P>Better days to us both. By the way, what happened to the disciplinary frying pan? Do you have custody ?

Hey Lor!<P>Yes, I have custody of the "Fryin' Pan"... need it?? Maybe there should be a thread for everyone to request a good <I>thwack</I> for someone who needs it... LOL <P>I just realized something.... I unlocked the door to my office this morning when I got here (from the inside)... I havn't done that since she threatened me several months ago. It feels GOOD! <P>B<p>[This message has been edited by Butterfly (edited June 13, 2000).]

Butterfly !<P>I have missededed you ! Get your hiney and frying pan to GQ, please, I need it (parkinglot lady problems) and so does Soulloss. <P>------------------<BR>Just call me - Deb<BR>------------------------<BR>The only day I can do anything about is today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not yet mine.<P>Hepatitis C, educate yourself ! <A HREF="http://hepatitis-central.com/" TARGET=_blank>http://hepatitis-central.com/</A>