Hey all,<P>It was on the 20th of this month last year that I stumbled on to this site. Since then I've been through some of the roughest times of my life and also happy times as well. I'm thankful for all of you...<P>Yesterday, the 21st was my anniversary. I didn't really have time to think about it since I spent most of the day with my two year old in the hospital. She hasn't been feeling well. But today it's been all I can think about. I called and spoke to my stbx today, to tell him how the kids were doing. We spoke about things and I just told him how things seemed to be overwhelming. He said that in time it would get better. I wasn't going to ask, but I just had to. SO I asked him did he remember what 'yesterday' was. He said yes. I told him Happy Special Day. i said that I knew he didn't consider it to be an anniversary, but it still was special. He laughed a little, and then he said, that he guessed it was. <P>I don't know why I'm writing this, I'm just rambling I know. I'm in FL visiting family right now, but before I leftr I nearly burnt my kitchen down in the apartment I live in. I don't know what I was thinking. I just seem to be in another world lately. My mind seems to be going to one extreme to the next. <P>I even called a psychic...that's how I know I must be losing it sometimes. I really need to get back to work. My maternal leave is up on the 8th so maybe once I get back into my routine, this depression will lift. <P>I really love you guys here, I don't know what I would have done without this place. well I guess that's it for now.<P>Thanks for letting me ramble. <P>------------------<BR><B>God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change...Courage to change the things I can...And the wisdom to know the difference.</B><P>lady_divine77@yahoo.com

Jaime-lee,<P>Its all right to be out of it, it kinds goes with the territory. Just hang in, it does get better. I'm suprised I haven't killed somone with my driving. There were times when that was the last thing I wanted to do, but I have this bad habit of needing money so it was off to work.<P>Just take things one day at a time.<P>Hang in and God Bless,<P>Bob

Hi jamie-lee,<P>In here is a good place to ramble. I got a little sense of situational depresion from your post. It might be worth considering a visit to the doctor to see if he can give you something to take the edge off & smooth out the peaks and valleys for awhile. I firmly believe that this is the most traumatic event that can occur in a persons life, so you may want to think about something to help lessen the pain for awhile.<P>Take care...<P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain and makes the sun come out again

Merry Christmas Jamie Lee!<P>Did you ever consider the possibility that you may be doing great, but just don't know it at the time? You have been through an awful lot recently, and you are still on your feet. Sorta like "I am woman, hear me roar!" You certainly have my respect and admiration. <P>I know you are fond of the Serenity Prayer, it so often follows your posts. Lets take it a step further: God never gives you more than you can handle in one day! <P>{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jamie Lee}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>Bumper<P><BR>

Hi Jamie-Lee--<P>Hope your two year old is feeling better!<P>You know, just having a new baby is cause for being a bit stressed, much less dealing with all you have been thru. I don't think you'd be normal at all if you sailed thru this time of year with no emotional stress at all. Do consider the suggestion to see your doc tho if it doesn't get better soon.<P>{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jamie-Lee}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>Hugs & prayers to you & your kids...Merry Christmas!!<P>Kathi

Jamie-Lee,<P>{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}<P>Love You,<P>Bill

Bob,<P>thanks, I guess taking it one day at a time is the best thing I can do. <P>Nick,<BR>I have been feeling quite depressed for awhile, I just tried to brush it off as post partum blues...but I don't know, I just may have to take that trip to the doc if it doesn't getr better soon. Just trying to make it past the holidays and see if returning to work after maternal leave will do be the cure first. Thanks for your support. I hope all is well with you...<P>You know Bumper,<BR>thanks for the cyber hug. i know that it could be worst, and I know that it has only been God that I have made it this far.<P>kathi<BR>thanks for the hugs and spport...merry xmas to you too!!<P>Bill,<BR>love ya' too! It's nice to hear that once in awhile. Hugs right back at you.<BR>