Hi Ruby,
You're right, I didn't reply to all you said in the other post as I didn't want to 'hijack' Startin Over's thread. Thanks for your interest in my situation!
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> "what has really changed if anything about him. If you got back with him would he satisfy all of your needs so that you wouldn't need to have another affair?"
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Ruby, I've thought about this naturally. The affair was about me, not about him. People who have affairs are selfish, don't you think? I started it when I was virtually unemployed, and working way below my own potential. My brother had recently died, and I was very depressed. My exH worked hideous hours, and I never spent time with him. It was, I feel, a midlife crisis, although I know that trivializes it. By the way, exH now works the same hours as me, and he's learned a lot from being alone. He's shared that with me. He now says he'd be willing to tell me with more honesty how he feels.
Have you read Harley's books? Don't you believe that any marriage can recover from infidelity? They're excellent resources and I've learned much.
In my situation,I was immature, and needy in a way I certainly am not now. Reaching goals in my professional life has helped me much in getting more self esteem and not looking for it in some outside source. I've also connected more with the Lord, and rededicated my life to Him. Being all alone this past 14 months has taught me much. Being separated from exH these past three years has taught me even more.
Beyond that, I learned the hard way much about myself and my exH. I learned too late what I had in him, and what an idiot I was. He's a wonderful man, and I think he accepts that I 'lost my head' for awhile. People do mess up, Ruby.
I respect how you feel in light of whatever you've gone through, Ruby. On the other hand, I've seen many marriages survive infidelity. It can be done.
I get the feeling you don't think anyone is wise to stay with a person who's cheated. You're entitled to your opinion, of course. It's certainly counter to what this website is all about, but it's good you're here to express how you feel.
I'm sorry if this post sounds disjointed, I don't have time to edit it.
Take care ,
Hopeful