Maybe the title could be "THE NEVER ENDING STORY"
It hasn't got any easier.
I just came from my daughter's soccer practice, you see that is where my ex-wife picks her up from.
And she comes everytime with her boyfriend and I am faced with seeing this all the time, and it hasn't got any easier, she sits over there with him 20 ft away or so, she never talks to me and I am not allowed to talk to her. I have so much hurt I have been delt, I have so much hurt watching him there with her. Oh! I try not to look, but it is so obvious right there in front of me. Do I leave my daughter's practice? No, I won't do that, I won't be forced from that too.
You see I was forced from our home 15 months ago so she could continue the affair she was having with him, her co-worker. I'm sorry if this is the same old story....but it still hurts like it happened yesterday.
When I make the anology of the "THE COLD WAR", I am comparing as here we are these 2 countries (people), who have so much in common but won't speak to each other, they are enemies, no dialoge, they are just there.
The had so much in common, 2 children together, every adult memory up until 15 months ago, nearly 18 years together, but she treats me like a leper. Or maybe I'm just invisible.
I have to stay out of her space (legally), but there is so much I want to ask her and for her to tell me.
Was I that bad a person? When did you start hating me? Do you like living in a split-up family? Do you love him that much?
I'm sorry, but I have lost so much, I'm lonely
and when I look at her, I still see the love of my life....She was everything I ever wanted....
and I can never tell her that.
I have become an empty shell. I don't know if she takes pleasure in seeing that, I don't know if she feels anything towards me.
