One of my biggest conflicts of this is if I did not so blindly trust him, this would never have happened. "What ifs?" plague me constantly regarding moments I never even thought to doubt deviations from the norm. I either came up with answers on my own, or if I bothered to ask, accepted his response without question. If I had played the suspicious haus frau as I now find that MANY wives do, this would never have happened, and I would not be suffering now. I never wanted to be the type of wife I am now, looking over my shoulder, and not believing anything, but these unfortunate circumstances have change my very nature. It's probably like that with all of us. <P>The trust will be restored to some extent if your H keeps his life an open book, but I don't think any of us will be able to trust blindly again. Trust him with one eye open, 1fool. <P>As far as your H forgetting details, men tend not to remember all of the details of stuff anyway. It's a running joke that women remember the anniversary of the first night alone and the total and exact circumstances surrounding it. Men just remember they got some. I know his omission bothers you, because my H's bother me, but look at the big picture. They had babies by other women. Does it really matter if he was with the whore 10 times instead of 5, what they ate, what they wore, etc? I learned too many details for my own good, and added more hurts to my arsenal of pain, needlessly. In asking him to hurt you more with details, and his desire to conceal them as to not cause you further pain, you are making him lie, in a sense. At this point, some things are better left unsaid. I know, it drives me crazy too...