Hey All,<BR> Anyone interested in joining an egroup dealing with infidelity, email me at <BR>katie1315@earthlink.net for info!!!! It's a new group.

JandJ's Mom,<P>I wanted to tell you that I too, feel like my h got off easy by my forgiving him. Like he would really get an appreciation for what he has done if he would have had to suffer a little bit more. He never was kicked out of the house, and never had to go without us. it is hard to live with those feelings. I do feel like my emotions have been ripped apart. But I am slowly trying to get my mind back. We are all here for you. Try to keep your spirits up I know it is hard.<P>babstr.

Hi JandJ'sMom<P>I know how you feel. I forgave my H too, but I also felt trapped in the sense that if I hadn't forgiven him he would have run into the OW's arms.<P>Ktgirl<BR>I'm interested in the group. I'll email you.<P>CD

ktgirl...hey! first i lost weight and i think that was bc of what was said earlier. I could make my H worry about me bc I was losing so much weight and not eating. It was a control thing for me. Ironically I always thought that was sooo silly until I did it myself. Now i understand.<BR>Second i think I know what u were getting at. When ow was about 4-5 months along I actually took 2 pg tests bc i could have sworn I felt a baby kick. and not just one or two times either. this went on all day for about 2 1/2 months. I even went to the docor over it. Took pg test-neg.<BR>Third..I feel I was way too easy on H. He was so sure that our marriage was over before he even told me about ow that i had to convince him it wasnt. Now that makes me angry bc I wish hed have begged me on his knees to stay. Is that selfish of me? Oh well if it is <BR> God Bless all

Broken,<BR> No that's not selfish to want that from him after what he put you through. At least I don't feel that it is. He's the one who let you down, broke your trust, and heart, etc. It's only natural to expect that he have to earn his way back into your heart. I felt this way. I was lucky, because in my case, he is still doing everything he can to do just that. He says that he doesn't feel as though I am asking for much from him, but he does feel for what he has done and put me through, that he must do all he can to bring things back even better than they were before, because he is the one who made the mistake, and for no good reason in his own mind. He says he has learned much from this whole affair seperation thing, and he wants me to see this. To him, because of the love he feels for me, it is worth whatever he has to through to rebuild it, and assure me that this will never NEVER happen again in our lives. I actually have not made him work hard to rebuild, all his efforts above and beyond are coming straight from his heart, and for this I am thankful. There was a time that I felt that things were totally over, when we first seperated. Now I see and feel how wrong I was.