Hey Tig,<p>I hope I don't seem too forward. I posted this in response to the last post you left on "feedback, please". You personally are an incredible inspiration to me. You see, if my wife and I manage to work through this (again) then you are her to me. In other words, she will possibly someday soon be dealing with exactly the same issues and struggles that you do. Your relationship with Abbi is what my wife will have in her life. I guess it sounds like I'm moving toward reconciliation, but that's for another post. Anyway, you seem to be an incredible woman that has made some horrible mistakes, but now is overcoming them. Your acceptance of responsibility, and the fact that I've never heard you try to blame your choices on someone else are so admirable. I pray that your struggles will lessen and the days ahead of you will grow brighter and brighter.<p>P51<p>[ November 28, 2001: Message edited by: P51 ]</p>

P51,<p>Thank you so much for your post. I do still struggle with my guilt, and that, of course, is my own fault. I do admit that it doesn't creep up as much as it used to, but it still rears it's ugly head every once in a while. A lot of my struggles right now are the fact that I don't have Sailorman here with me at this time, and this is the first deployment that we don't have any info on where they are or even what they are doing. I still have the peace from God that he will be safe, but it is still hard to deal with, especially right now.<p>If your W ever wants to "talk" to me, for advice, or just reassurance that this can be survived, please pass along my email address. <p>I will still be around, lurking and posting every once in a while, but I do think that I need to take a little break, so as to not dwell on my past indescressions. You are also an amazing man to be so supportive, and sensitive to your W during this time. Every little bit helps with her own personal forgivness, that only she can provide for herself. I don't know how many times Sailorman would tell me that's what I needed to do. But that was the biggest hurdle for me.<p>Thanks again,<p>Tigger<p>[ November 28, 2001: Message edited by: tigger4jdt ]<p>[ November 29, 2001: Message edited by: tigger4jdt ]</p>