Hey Twiist,<p>Yea, 2001... I can think back and remember the days when i was living in 1994 (college days) and would ponder about what it would be like in the year 2000 and thereafter... Nothing, but nothing could have prepared me for this.<p>I probably was one of those women that foresaw things to be pretty "normal" if you will...a husband, precious children, and we all live happily ever after. I still can't believe that this is MY life. I think i just always felt that I was better than the people on Jerry Springer, but I have learned that we all can succumb to Satan's web so long as their is temptation and sin. I know now that i am no better than anybody, but I also know that i am only as good as the company i keep. So i will press on to surround myself with God-loving, God fearing friends, not even that's a guarantee because we all will fall, but i must admit this whole nightmare sure has me not trusting people. <p>Stillinpain,
as i read what you wrote, i could have sworn that was me, even my h read it and asked if that was really from me. I think you and i are feeling a lot of the same feelings these days. I too am in really close proximity to the ow and don't think that i can deal with those circumstances, nor do i want to. The pain is just too close to home. I have asked h to move to CA with me, my hometown, but he is a cop and cannot seem to want to part with his dear department, i guess that leaves me 2nd in line... sigh...<p>Prayers to you all,
God is still Good,
I have a feeling that we are extra special to Him and he knew that we would be able to handle what we are going through now, ludicrous i know, to us, but i know He smiles down on us for our perseverence in Him.<p>Love,
Julia
