Hello all.
I haven't posted in quite some time. I have been lurking and reading, though. I have had two triggers that have come about over the last few weeks. At least, I think that is my issue.
I guess I am looking for some been there, done that replies so I know this is normal.
To recap briefly, D-day was 11/00. Our OC is lost in oblivion due to Ex-ow not allowing us to see or have any contact after 9 months of basic uneventful visitation. Appears to be her insecurity over her child having a relationship with me. Anyway...
My H just went back to nights at work and this shift involved the affair. Our OC would also have been conceived around this time in 2000. That was a bit of an AHA moment today for me.
I have been having recurring dreams and thoughts of oc and exow. Is this normal with these circumstances? I am hoping this is just another part of the process. I was so hoping I had moved beyond this. Any responses would be appreciated.<p>P.S. Hi, Twiisty! I have not forgotten about you and think of you often. I want to get together again, but it will have to be this summer. June sound good?

tryin4sainthood
I just wanted to say it sounds normal to me to have those feelings. When January came around I was so depressed because that is when the A took place.<p>Oh, about the dreams. I have them too. Except I do not know if OC is my H and that is what my dreams are about<p>Dawn

Dear T4S,<p>I'd say yeah, this is pretty normal. When under stress I still dream about the A and OC. <p>I was getting pretty miserable to live with in the weeks leading up to our adoption. The stress was enormous, my responsibilites were even more enormous and I was taking it out on Mr. J. I was getting quite shrill.<p>I dreamed that he grabbed me by the cheeks and squeezed my mouth shut. In my dream he said, "your mouth is a viscious weapon and I wish I had chosen to stay with Timberly [my pet name for exOW]." the next morning I apologized for the way I had been talking to him and he said I wasn't as bad as I thought I had been. Whew!<p>MJ

<blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr> P.S. Hi, Twiisty! I have not forgotten about you and think of you often. I want to get together again, but it will have to be this summer. June sound good? <hr></blockquote><p>T4S!!!!!!!!!!!!!<p>I have not forgotten about you either...just now settling down with all of dinobon's medical situation....(heh heh) [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] <p>I think Summer would be excellent to get together and hang...just let me know when...my two older girls will be going to Arizona to be with their bio-dad for 5 weeks. I will just have "mini-me" and Bubba for part of the Summer...we need to make plans.<p>I understand how you feel also as each Mardi Gras season is a reminder that ex-OW (affectionately referred to as Secubus in our house [img]images/icons/rolleyes.gif" border="0[/img] )
conceived OC...*sigh*....our D-day approacheth like next week...I have a nice post already planned out in my head of what I would like to share with everyone on this board...but I probably won't post it...hee hee.....probably don't have time!!!!! Since Mr. "T" works night shift permenantly, I understand how you feel about that also...Trust is a fragile thing.<p>gimme a call or e-mail me or we can chat sometime...let's get together and "talk" and Mr. "T" and I owe you a fine, fabulous dinner....<p>Hugs, thoughts and prayers to you....<p>Twiisty