Hi Friends,
I've heard that some of you have been wondering or worried about what has become of me since I disappeared. I needed some time to make some important decisions and after a lot of soul searching realized my husband loved me and wanted me and that my place was with him.
It's been a year of struggles and joys and I feel like I have come full circle in so many areas of my life. I had a beautiful baby boy about four weeks ago and he has brought my husband and me a kind of happiness we never knew existed before. This baby is so wonderful and we are such proud parents, I couldn't be more grateful for this gift from God.
My husband is a wonderful father and is a great husband and we are well into recovery. I don't like to use the word recovery too much only because God has done the work to RECONCILE our marriage and we both know that HE has truly empowered us both with knowledge and wisdom about life, our marriage, family, integrity, discernment, forgiveness, sin, and the list goes on and on... We understand that WE ARE going to fail as husbands, as wives, as fathers and as mothers, but so long as we have Christ to lean on and bear our burdens, we are RECOVERED already. My husband and I talk about VICTORY a lot, how we are victorious today! We are connected to each other and are working to build our family into something wonderful that would make God's heart rejoice.
The past year of difficulties and indecision are behind us and we have a new home and a wonderful new baby. This baby has softened my heart towards the OC and we are seriously considering contact. We feel this would be wonderful for both children.
One last interesting side note I must share is this... God must really have softened my heart because we were contacted by a city attorney letting us know that we could file felony charges against OW for smashing in our car windshied because she was caught admitting she did it on a work phone. Well, after some praying and God answering us back on what to do, we decided not to press charges. Vengeance is still the Lord's and He is going to decide what that is for her, not us. And plus, my vengeance would probably exceed what is truly due to her. Only God knows and moves in his time.
I will let everyone know how contact goes as soon as the courts grant us joint physical custody. Please be in prayer for us because she is not, at this point, allowing us to have any time with oc.
I believe she may be fearful of the stability that our family could offer oc, and not to mention what a great mom and dad my husband and I would make.
I am working on a website for Benjamin so everyone can see some pictures... I will let you all know when it's ready.
Miss you and Love you all (well, most of you) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
Julia
