Well tomorrow is D-day for me. Not sure what to say or do any more. I divorced him even though I love him. I still see him almost every weekend for a dinner or something. My family hates him and I feel like I would be humilated if I took him back but a BIG part of me wants to. He has stayed in counseling for the year and still ask me to go with him. I find it hard to believe that he has gone with out sex for this amount of time, since we had regular sex and he STILL had an A so why wouldn't he get some since we're D? We have been intimate about 4 times in the last year and would never let it be "making love" or romantic just a quickie to get some "relief" with out being too graphic. I just can't seem to let this go. Its been a WHOLE year should I be better by now? I still ask questions and think about it constantly. I would what the OC looks like and how could he NOT want to be a part of her life? He seems sincere but there are times I doubt his motives and just "feel" like he would do this again someday in the future. Any advice?

It sounds like you still love your H, even if D'vd. Has H really repented for a year and has gone to counseling? This does say something for his character, and sincerity. It sounds like H still loves you.

I stayed with my H, and still feel humiliated at times.

I say, follow your heart. You only walk this way once. Maybe you and H will get along better staying single.

You did ask for opinions. This is mine.

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