I haven't heard from you in a while and was wondering how you are doing.<P>Give us an update or drop me a line in email<P>truthseeker_mb@hotmail.com

Hey TS!!<BR>Gotta love that search topic huh?<P>Well...guess it's about time for an update on Sparkydog and I...<P>When you posted this we were in the process of moving. We are now 5 hours away from where we used to live and still together.<P>There have been many rough times and ups and downs but we are doing well, day by day.<P>There are still many triggers and times when we hurt each others feelings. But there is also much more understanding, communicating, laughter and togetherness.<P>I never thought 6 months ago that I would be where we are now.<P>How are you doing?<BR>And everyone else that I have failed to keep up on.<P> <BR>thanks for asking about me...I have pretty much sucked on emails!<P>love, Cat aka Sarah

Hi there!!!<P>I am so glad to see this...always wondered how you & Sparky were doing. Glad to hear that thinsg are going well!!!<P>Hang in there--<P>Kathi

Hey Cat!<P>Good to finally hear from you! I had a feeling that you and Sparky could make it. It just sounded like there was still a lot of love there.<P>I'm not much further along than I was. There is less tension at home and H and I have been taking ballroom dance lessons together. But I still feel less than amorous towards him and I feel like I'm slipping into accepting the status quo more for the sake of giving in to inertia than because it's really where i want to be. This has me frustrated. I have the feeling that I won't be happy either way. If I stay, I feel like I'll be letting myself down. If I leave I let everyone down (including myself). So I'm down to the lesser of two evils and I'm not thrilled with my options. I haven't seen the OM since March, but I still think of him from time-to-time. <P>I think I still have a lot of work to do on myself, figuring out who I am and who I want to be and how my marriage fits with that. I'm hoping to be able to take a short sabbatical at a spiritual retreat to try to sort it all out without the distractions of day-to-day life. I'm doing better than I was but I'm not there yet.<P>I haven't been posting much lately because I've been busy making up for lost time at work. I'm glad I logged in today, though, so I could see your message.<P>Keep in touch.<BR>

Caterpillar,<P>What a pleasant surprise. Not that you two are still working on the marriage but that you have come back to post a little.<P>I read your up date. It is far too sparse. What made you two decide to move and keep going? I have to know.<P>Meanwhile, I hope you and your family have a very Merry Christmas and a Much better New Year.<P>God Bless,<P>JL