We have been married for 5 years, together for 7. 7 years ago, when I first started dating H, I was still seeing another guy in secret. This lasted about 4 months, then I dumped the guy for my future H because I fell in love. (I have been posting to the "Conflict" board for a little while. The full details are there.)<BR>Now, 7 years later, H won't let me live it down. He found out on our 1st wedding anniversary from a buddy who saw me with the old BF when I had been dating my H for about a month. Around our 1st anniversary, the buddy told H that he had seen me sneaking around with the BF in my car. That was a lie! To disprove this myth, I traded in my car for something different. The buddy reported another "sighting" to my H, in my old car, and H turned on him, realizing the lie.<BR>Still, we had a bangup fight on that 1st anniversary, and he has never forgiven me for my "affair." He has played the role of the betrayed spouse for the past 4 years, and whenever we fight, he brings this topic in to beat me with it. I have groveled and tried to please him for 4 years. During this time, he has constantly accused me of sneaking around with some guy, any guy. If he can't reach me by cell or pager, he insists I had my legs in the air. <BR>I've turned myself into a hermit, not going out with friends or co-workers. I don't leave the house without his company except for work. We spend a lot of time sitting on the couch in silence.<BR>Recently, I had to go on a business trip for 2 weeks, and he went nuts, became violent (didn't hurt me.) He insisted I had a boyfriend in this other city and was shacking up! He said he'd divorce me if I went, but I'd lose my job if I didn't. I told him I had to go. H didn't leave me.<BR>What can I do to appease him? I'm so sick of being accused and suspected I'm just disgusted with him. Anybody dealing with the imaginary affair? I'm ready for an imaginary divorce!