I have been posting in Plan A/B mostly, so here's a brief run down before my question. H had A, I found out about 4 months into it,(discovery was 1 year ago) the A is still continuing in mostly the form of daily phone calls with occaisional meetings or dates (unsure how often this really happens). H has been living on his own for about 6 months, we had our first counseling session with Jennifer last Thursday. Not sure what effect if any, it had with him. He says he loves me, not in love with me but swears he is not in love with OW, just has some kind of draw to her. He wants us to remain friends since we've been together for 13 years, and have a 3 year old son. I still love him very much and do want us to work on rebuilding, so here is my question.... How do I handle my own loneliness? I just want someone to care for ME, sit on the couch and play with my hair, hold my hand and show me affection. I know if I go out there and start dating I will be doing it for someone to fill the space/hole I have in my life. I get asked out about once a week and can always find a reason to say no. I am getting to a point though where I am weakening in that department. Ofcourse my friends and family say that it is time I get out there and try to forget him (he seems to have no problem doing that with me) move on and find a new life. Live as if he is never coming back, since that is what he has told me. Any advice will be great. I am trying so very hard with him and seem to get no where. I know the old saying of "lots of fish in the sea" I hear it too much. Is this the sign that I should move onto someone who wants to and will enjoy being with me? Or is this just "normal"? I am torn between what I know I want (and would welcome back) now and in the future and what I feel like I have to have for myself right now. It sounds so selfish I know, but I live each and everyday for my son and H, not for me. I go out and do lots of things to occupy my time but my need for affection is so great, especially when I am vunerable (now). Please help. Thank you.