McBecca, so that I am clear, I do wish you and your H all the best. My only point was that no man would wish for his M ... and that even if a good comes from evil... it doesn't change that given the chance... your H would have had you not cheat even though that would mean no daughter. Now that she is here... obviously you both deserve happiness and I truly hope your M continues to grow.

You made the following comment... and I would suggest that you stop entertaining thoughts about the OM and what he is thinking or feeling.
I believe God will also use OC to bring OM closer to him,

The OM is out of your lives unless he decides to take action to see his child. I would suggest that you begin removing him from your thoughts as well.

Be well McB.